August 10

Post 914, Day 221 of 2013
- and 952 days since I started this blog -

Daily Comment

Today is the day I was trying to resolve inner anxiety that has been bothering me the last few days. Face it, or throw it aside, move past it (which in a sense, I know I already have).

What's been bothering me is missing a gig with my band. At first I thought it bothered me because I felt abandoned. I wrote about that, and got over it. 

Then it was about defining myself vis a vis the band - more like a problem with the billing - that one definition of the band (unplugged) was that it wasn't i am Fool unplugged, it was J. and friends (from i am Fool).

I got past that, too. If it was just a billing thing, I could completely understand and accept that.

Finally, I came (slowly) to understand that what it was actually about was that I was missing an opportunity to play with the band, and those moments were literally too precious, to important to me. And I had to admit that I valued that enough to extend myself according to its true value, to 'pay' for the privilege.

The cost was leaving an event with friends I get to see only rarely, and driving for four-and-a-half hours longer than I otherwise would have. There was no out-of-pocket monetary cost at all, but some psychic cost - normally, I'm the last to leave, and even then, I try to eke out some more time with my once-a-year friends at dinner or whatever.

But this year, I had to decide which shade of gray I liked better. The one that most affected my everyday life won out.

I played the gig - and got a heroes welcome from the band, all of whom were happier to be playing a regular i am Fool kick-ass set than a less-than-the-band public experiment. And the set went really well.

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 Food and Diet Section

2013 Daily Weight

Today's Weight:         213.4 lbs

Yesterday's Weight:     210.0 lbs

Day Net Loss/Gain:      + 3.4 lbs

Diet Comment

I'm approaching my high weight for the year, and I wasn't entirely in control of today's eating, either.

Food Log 

Breakfast
Protein bar.

Lunch
Pot-luck: sesame noodles with vegetables and sesame-peanut sauce, rotisserie chicken, spanakopita, hummus, bread, and corn chips.

Dinner

A protein bar. 

Snack
A protein bar and Ezekiel 4:9 Golden Flax sprouted grain cereal with coconut sugar and almond-coconut milk.

Liquid Intake   

   Coffee:  0 oz.   Water: 144+ oz. 

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