#2822, Friday, April 29, 2022: Good-bye, Daily Comments

Post 2822

- 12 years and 119 days since I started this blog -

February 20, 2022

Daily Comment

I am deleting Daily Comments going forward. They will resume when I travel.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    194.4 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/28/22):         193.9 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     + 0.5 lbs.

Diet Comment

This gain is a bit of a surprise. In the long run, it's noise, and I have no doubt that the work I will be doing this weekend will see a nice loss. 

Food Log

Breakfast
1:00pm: Overnight oatmeal+ (rolled oats, chia and hemp seeds, oat milk, mixed berries, walnuts, nutritional yeast, cacao nibs, whey protein powder, kefir, Greek yogurt).

Lunch
5:35pm: Peanut butter and a Quest bar.

Dinner
9:50pm, from Popeye's: Spicy chicken sandwich.  Homemade coleslaw, and a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 1;   Coffee: 20 oz.;  Water: 64+ oz.; 

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#2821, Thursday, April 28, 2022: No comment, just food stuff

Post 2821

- 12 years and 118 days since I started this blog -

February 20, 2022

Daily Comment

I've got nothing to say, but it's okay.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    193.9 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/27/22):         195.5 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     - 1.6 lbs.

Diet Comment

Thanks to yesterday's anxiety-related low calorie intake, I am at my lowest weight for more than a decade. Well, all right then 

Food Log

Breakfast
1:00pm: Veggie-cheese omelet (kale, spinach, mushrooms, peppers, onions, shaved parmesan and eggs) with Ezekiel 4:9 Flax sprouted grain toast and guacamole.

Lunch
Skipped.

Dinner
10:00pm: Quorn sloppy Joe: (Quorn Grounds [mushroom-based protein ground meat substitute], lentils, Wegman's Grandpa's Sauce Goes Vegetarian, chopped kale and spinach). And a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 1;   Coffee: 20 oz.;  Water: 64+ oz.; 

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#2820, Wednesday, April 27, 2022: Focus on future equals anxiety

Post 2820

- 12 years and 117 days since I started this blog -

February 20, 2022

Daily Comment

Things get better, things get worse. Change happens. Today, things mostly got better - but not my sleep.

I'm getting a bit more anxious, but a bit more ready to accept what happens, as regards to my sister's upcoming move.

Today, I got some much-needed help for her down in Brooklyn, to prepare.

It was a huge relief. But I'm more anxious about the moving day. So it goes.

I've been getting a lot of positive feedback regarding my role and activities, but I feel like it's just short of enough - which is irrational.

I'm having irrational thoughts. Because I'm living in the future, with uncertainty I am finding very uncomfortable. All anxiety comes from living in the future.

It was bad tonight - so bad that I skipped my regular open mic at Shifty's. That's bad, and the opposite of what I should have done.

And my appetite is down.

I only realized, as I wrote this, that there is an explanation for my sleeplessness and anxiety: I'm taking new medication. I'm certain it's the source of these problems. It is too coincidental that the symptoms started after I started taking a once-canceled prescription for arrhythmia, and doubling one of my other heart medications. 

Glad I figured that out. I'll be talking with my cardiologist, the beautiful Dr. Hana Smith, next week, and I'll try to get off these pills.

I'm grateful for the knowledge that my anxiety and fear are groundless, and I will move past this temporary glitch.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    195.5 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/26/22):         196.5 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     - 1.0 lbs.

Diet Comment

To paraphrase Mr. Miyagi, "Weight on, weight off." 

Food Log

Breakfast
2:40pm: Oatmeal+ (rolled oats, chia and hemp seeds, oat milk, mixed berries, walnuts, nutritional yeast, cacao nibs, whey protein powder, kefir, Greek yogurt).

Lunch
7:45pm: Peanut butter and a Quest bar.

Dinner
Skipped.
Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 1;   Coffee: 20 oz.;  Water: 36+ oz.; 

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#2819, Tuesday, April 26, 2022: The return of sleep woes

Post 2819

- 12 years and 116 days since I started this blog -

February 20, 2022

Daily Comment

I haven't been sleeping well. After a few months of sleeping better than I have in decades, I have something that worries me enough to interfere with sleep: the coming move of my sister-in-law from Brooklyn to the other side of my garden apartment building here in Liverpool, NY.

There are a lot of variables I can't control, and I can't be as helpful as I want - there are things I can't do.

I don't feel guilty about that. I've done a lot, and I can honestly say I'm doing the best I can. But there is a scary-long hard-work day ahead, where I'm getting help from someone I'm not sure I can trust to help.

Saturday, I'll drive down with a couple of friends to pick up a U-haul van in Queens or New Jersey - at the time I'm writing this, I'm waiting to hear from U-haul where my truck will be (that's a worry right there). I'll proceed to Flatbush Avenue in Brooklyn. 

There we'll have to break down the bed and the stereo. Take those things, an exercise bike, a regular bike, Denie's clothes and papers and miscellaneous can't-leave-it-behind stuff, maybe some small appliances, out to the hall, down to the basement, into the van. 

Then make the five-plus hour drive back to Liverpool, unload everything, and put the bed together.

That's a lot for one day, and, of course, there's a lot to be done leading up to that one day. But I can't help at all with that, and I fear Denie may not be up to it.

Then there's the landlord's lawsuit, not being dealt with, because the court date is in May. There's still no lawyer, and no plan to get Denie to court on the date.

So, I'm worried, although I know better. But this is one I can't let go of, the way I'm usually able to.

And it's costing me good sleep. My average sleep duration has dropped back to where it was (less than five hours a night) after I'd built it up in February and March to consistently more than seven.

I'm grateful for whatever lessons I learn from this whole thing, and still somewhat optimistic.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    196.5 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/25/22):         195.5 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     + 1.0 lbs.

Diet Comment

High-carb dinner last night, polished off with an entire 100 gram chocolate bar. Sure enough, I tested my blood sugar before weighing myself, and it was a bit high. So, no surprise on the weight gain, although I'm happy with the results I've been seeing this year.

Food Log

Breakfast
1:40pm: Mixed cheese omelet with salsa.

Lunch
6:45pm: Carrots with homemade mayonnaise and a Quest bar.

Dinner
9:50pm: Salmon burger with pesto sauce, air-fried brussels sprouts with olive oil, shaved parmesan, and Everythihg But the Bagel seasoning. Greek yogurt with walnuts, stevia and cacao nibs.

Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 1;   Coffee: 20 oz.;  Water: 64+ oz.; 

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#2818, Monday, April 25, 2022: No comment, just food stuff

Post 2818

- 12 years and 115 days since I started this blog -

February 20, 2022

Daily Comment

I've got nothing to say, but it's okay.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    195.5 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/22/22):         196.6 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     - 1.1 lbs.

Diet Comment

For once, I begin the week without a weekend weight gain. In fact, I'm practically at my lowest weight this year.

Food Log

Breakfast
1:40pm: Cheese omelet (kale, spinach, peppers, onions, Dubliner cheese and eggs) with Ezekiel 4:9 Flax sprouted grain toast with guacamole.

Lunch
6:40pm: Air-popped popcorn with olive oil, truffle oil, nutritional yeast and Everything But the Bagel seasoning.

Dinner
10:50pm: Quorn sloppy Joe: (Quorn Grounds [mushroom-based protein ground meat substitute], lentils, Wegman's Grandpa's Sauce Goes Vegetarian, chopped kale and spinach). A Ghirardelli 72% chocolate bar.

Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 1;   Coffee: 20 oz.;  Water: 68+ oz.; 

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#2817, Friday, April 22, 2022: No comment, just food stuff

Post 2817

- 12 years and 112 days since I started this blog -

February 20, 2022

Daily Comment

I've got nothing to say, but it's okay.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    196.6 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/21/22):         197.5 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     - 0.9 lbs.

Diet Comment

Nice way to end the week, nice net loss since Monday, and I'm right on the trend line. Perfect.

Food Log

Breakfast
2:20pm: Oatmeal+ (rolled oats, chia and hemp seeds, oat milk, mixed berries, walnuts, nutritional yeast, cacao nibs, whey protein powder, kefir, Greek yogurt).

Lunch
9:00pm: Ramen with chicken and greens (Vite-Ramen Sichuan chili high-protein ramen, Buffalo chicken breast, nutritional yeast, mushrooms, kale and spinach).

Dinner
10:50pm: Carrots and homemade mayonnaise, and a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 1;   Coffee: 20 oz.;  Water: 48+ oz.; 

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#2816, Thursday, April 21, 2022: No comment, just food stuff

Post 2816

- 12 years and 111 days since I started this blog -

February 20, 2022

Daily Comment

I've got nothing to say, but it's okay.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    197.5 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/20/22):         196.0 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     + 1.5 lbs.

Diet Comment

I didn't sleep as well last night, but the small difference doesn't seem enough for the gain at weigh-in. I don't really know how to explain it. Just late-night eating? Maybe that's it.

Food Log

Breakfast
1:40pm: Cheese omelet (kale, spinach, mushrooms, peppers, onions, shaved parmesan and eggs) with Ezekiel 4:9 Flax sprouted grain toast, and air-fried brussels sprouts (with olive oil and Everything But the Bagel seasoning).

Lunch
5:35pm: Peanut butter and a Quest bar.

Dinner
10:50pm: Lentil curry with kale and spinach on riced cauliflower.

Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 1;   Coffee: 20 oz.;  Water: 46+ oz.; 

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#2815, Wednesday, April 20, 2022: No comment, just food stuff

Post 2815

- 12 years and 110 days since I started this blog -

February 20, 2022

Daily Comment

I've got nothing to say, but it's okay.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    196.0 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/19/22):         197.7 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     - 1.7 lbs.

Diet Comment

I got much better sleep last night, and was nicely surprised with a loss I didn't see coming - I thought my high-calorie dinner of nuts and chocolate was going to spoil that (it did give me a slightly high glucose reading this morning). But no-o-o, all good.

Food Log

Breakfast
2:35pm: Veggie-cheese omelet (kale, spinach, mushrooms, peppers, onions, shaved parmesan and eggs) with guacamole on Ezekiel 4:9 Flax sprouted grain toast.

Lunch
7:40pm: Salad (buffalo chicken breast, shaved parmesan cheese, arugula, cabbage, chard kale, spinach and creamy balsamic dressing) and a Quest bar.

Dinner
12;30am: Sugar-free dark chocolate.

Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 1;   Coffee: 20 oz.;  Water: 56+ oz.; and a shot of Jameson's Irish whiskey

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#2814, Tuesday, April 18, 2022: No comment, just food stuff

Post 2814

- 12 years and 109 days since I started this blog -

February 20, 2022

Daily Comment

I've got nothing to say, but it's okay.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    197.7 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/18/22):         198.2 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     - 0.5 lbs.

Diet Comment

Reversal of a trend, even though I only got three-and-a-half hours sleep.

Food Log

Breakfast
2:15pm: Veggie-cheese frittata (kale, spinach, mushrooms, peppers, onions, shaved parmesan and eggs) and Ezekiel 4:9 Flax sprouted grain toast with guacamole.

Lunch
7:30pm: Peanut butter and a Quest bar.

Dinner
10:50pm: Macadamia nuts - a lot - and sugar-free dark chocolate - a lot.

Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 1;   Coffee: 20 oz.;  Water: 52+ oz.; 

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#2813, Monday, April 18, 2022: Losing sleep

Post 2813

- 12 years and 108 days since I started this blog -

February 20, 2022

Daily Comment

After a month of sleeping better than I have for years, I've had about a week of sleeping poorly again.

I have a worried mind. I worry alot about my sister-in-law, and how we're going to move her up here from Brooklyn, and how she's going to manage when she gets here.

She's going to be my neighbor and I worry about the responsibility I feel because of that.

I worry about the money needed to make that happen.

I worry about the logistics, who will do the work, what vehicle will be needed and accessible.

I do this worrying after waking up when I go to the bathroom in the middle of the night. Then, although tired, I can't go back to sleep.

This is a familiar problem, but the worry is a new twist.

I certainly know what my worrying is worth - nothing. But still, it is present, and I'm not letting go with my usual ease. I think the lack of sleep has a lot to do with my recent uptick in weight.

But I don't know. I trust things will work out - they always seem to.

I'm grateful for hope and optimism.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    198.2 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/15/22):         197.5 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     + 0.7 lbs.

Diet Comment

I'm actually a little unhappy with today's result - I can't explain it and the trend is bad for the weekend, at the highest Friday weight since last month. Oh, well, I may just have to be a little better this weekend.

Food Log

Breakfast
1:45pm: Oatmeal+ (rolled oats, chia and hemp seeds, oat milk, mixed berries, walnuts, nutritional yeast, cacao nibs, whey protein powder, kefir, Greek yogurt).

Lunch
6:30pm: Macadamia nuts and cheddar cheese. A square of sugar-free dark chocolate.

Dinner
10:50pm: Salad (buffalo chicken breast, shaved parmesan cheese, arugula, cabbage, chard kale, spinach and creamy balsamic dressing) and cottage cheese with a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 1;   Coffee: 20 oz.;  Water: 48+ oz.; 

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#2812, Friday, April 15, 2022: Paring down

Post 2812

- 12 years and 105 days since I started this blog -

February 20, 2022

Daily Comment

After talking about upcoming dates at a rehearsal for a semi-pro blues band I sub with, today I learned that I've been replaced, and the six gigs coming up in the next six months are canceled.

Good. I hope they will be replaced by Jimi Marley Project gigs,but whether or not that works out, this wasn't a band I ever wanted to be a member of, and I've maintained my sub status, as opposed to band membership, for years now.

I don't mind lightening my load in this case. Not at all. The biggest challenge that this band ever offered me was covering for other band members' mistakes.

I have been very busy, musically, and I'm wondering (just a little, now and then) how long that can and will continue for me.

I'm grateful for having options, and staying in the present.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    197.5 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/14/22):         196.5 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     + 1.0 lbs.

Diet Comment

I'm actually a little unhappy with today's result - I can't explain it and the trend is bad for the weekend, at the highest Friday weight since last month, and above the trend line. Oh, well, I may just have to be a little better this weekend.

Food Log

Breakfast
1:45pm: Overnight oatmeal+ (rolled oats, chia and hemp seeds, oat milk, mixed berries, walnuts, nutritional yeast, cacao nibs, whey protein powder, kefir, Greek yogurt) and a Nellie's sous vide egg drop.

Lunch
Skipped.

Dinner
10:50pm: Chick pea curry on riced cauliflower, and a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 1;   Coffee: 20 oz.;  Water: 64+ oz.; 

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32811, Thursday, April 14, 2022: No comment, just food stuff

Post 2811

- 12 years and 104 days since I started this blog -

February 20, 2022

Daily Comment

I've got nothing to say, but it's okay.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    196.5 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/13/22):         196.0 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     + 0.5 lbs.

Diet Comment

I'm only a little surprised by this gain - it wasn't expected, but given that it is still slightly under the trend line, I'm good. Also, I don't know how or why it is up - it may be nothing more than weighing myself a little earlier than usual.

Food Log

Breakfast
1:30pm: Smoked salmon, a veggie scramble (arugula, chard, kale, spinach, mushrooms, peppers, onions, horseradish cheddar and eggs) and Ezekiel 4:9 sprouted grains toast.

Lunch
6:00pm: Peanut butter and a Quest bar.

Dinner
10:40pm: Carrots and homemade mayonnaise, Buffalo chicken breast and horseradish cheddar, and a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 0;   Coffee: 20 oz.;  Water: 48+ oz.; 

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#2810, Wednesday, April 13, 2022: No comment, just food stuff

Post 2810

- 12 years and 103 days since I started this blog -

February 20, 2022

Daily Comment

I've got nothing to say, but it's okay.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    196.0 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/12/22):         197.3 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     - 1.7 lbs.

Diet Comment

I made up for my dinner out yesterday (technically, lunch) with only a Quest bar for the rest of the night, not feeling great after the previous day's booster shot, anyway. So, here we are, a nice low weight, below the already-favorable trend line.

Food Log

Breakfast
Skipped.

Lunch
3:10pm: Salad with roasted turkey breast, shaved parmesan cheese, walnuts, arugula, cabbage, chard, kale, spinach and creamy balsamic dressing.

Dinner
10:50pm: Salmon burger with air-fried brussels sprouts (with olive oil. Everything But the Bagel seasoning, and nutritional yeast) and a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 2;   Coffee: 0 oz.;  Water: 64+ oz.; 

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