Wednesday, February 22, 2017

#1821, Wednesday, February 22: Bye for a while...


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Post 1821, Day 53 of 2017
- 2,245 days since I started this blog -
Daily Comment
I'm writing this right before leaving - there will be no Food Log, nothing past the weigh-in.

Food and Diet
Today's Weight:                      205.7 lbs.
Previous Weight (2/21/17):           203.9 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain:                       + 1.8 lbs.


Diet Comment
There's all that sodium and extra calories showing up in a big way. I expected this. 

Well, that's it for a while, I'm writing this right before packing up my computer for the trip.  Today I start vacation eating.  I will have to buckle down and lose the weight I am inevitably going to pick up while dining with friends for the next month. But I'll leave that to when it happens.

Food Log
Posting before breakfast, which will be on the road:  No food log today.  


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Tuesday, February 21, 2017

#1820, Tuesday, February 21: Almost time for time out


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Post 1820, Day 52 of 2017
- 2,244 days since I started this blog -
Daily Comment
Yesterday I mentioned I had arranged for some travel over the course of the year.

It starts tomorrow, with preparations for a four week trip that will encompass Woodstock, Croton-on-Hudson, Manhattan, Queens, Brooklyn, Pittsboro, North Carolina, and then a couple of weeks in Wilbur-on-the-Sea, Florida.

Four weeks makes this the longest trip I've taken since my twenties.

It will make this the longest gap in my blog, ever.

My eating today was more vacation-style than ordinary, being both higher in quantity/calories, and salt content, so tomorrow's weigh-in will not be pretty.

And that will be 'it' until I get back home, around the equinox, March 21st, 22nd or 23rd.

So, tomorrow, after I weigh-in, I'm out, and I'll return to the blog in about four weeks.

As always, I'm grateful for my life and all the known and unknown things that led me to this point.


Food and Diet
Today's Weight:                      203.9 lbs.
Previous Weight (2/20/17):           203.1 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain:                       + 0.8 lbs.


Diet Comment
I have seen this happen before:  Even after a perfectly on-plan day, my weight continues rising after a bad weekend or vacation. So it is today. So it goes.

Food Log
Breakfast
2:50pm:  
Omelet with peppers, onion, greens, chia seeds, hemp seeds, parmesan cheese and bacon. Not shown: more bacon and cole slaw.
Lunch
10:30pm: Parmesan cheese, kimchee and a Quest bar.

Dinner
1:30am:  London broil and mozzarella cheese rollups with Philippe's famous hot mustard, kimchee, and a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake
   Espressos: 1;   Coffee: 22 oz.;  Tea: 0 oz.;  Water: 90+ oz.


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Monday, February 20, 2017

#1819, Monday, February 20: Planning a trip, not a life


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Post 1819, Day 51 of 2017
- 2,243 days since I started this blog -
Daily Comment
Last week I filed my taxes and began a frenzy of travel planning. I completed that today by securing a rental car for my trip to LA in October.

This is the only kind of planning that make sense to me, for better or worse.

Travel is the reason we have time zones. Things related to travel have schedules. If you want a good seat on your train or plane you have to buy your ticket early. When you visit, you let people know when, so they're home or can warn you they won't be.

Planning your life? That's a whole other thing. Those plans, for which you take action now for a desired result in the future, tend to be based on many things below your awareness, and make your plans more of a gamble.

I have never won one of those life-planning bets - I apparently lack the perspective and insight to have designed my life as it is now, and it's a good thing that life happened whenever I made a plan, to paraphrase John Lennon, because I like the way things turned out, despite my plans.

Yes, I am grateful my life is good now, despite the plans I made to have a life that wouldn't have lived up to what living delivered.


Food and Diet
Today's Weight:                      203.1 lbs.
Previous Weight (2/17/17):           201.6 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain:                       + 1.5 lbs.


Diet Comment
I was spectacularly bad this weekend, thanks to the fabulous gift of a chocolate babka and two almond croissants from Breads Bakery, where the best-in-my-experience of those two items is made. I cannot apologize or feel regret. I don't do this very often.

Food Log
Breakfast
6:40pm:
Roasted turkey breast, shaved parmesan cheese, kale, spinach, chard, cabbage, carrots, chia seeds, hemp seeds, balsamic vinaigrette.
Lunch
10:10pm: A Quest bar.

Dinner
1:30am:  London broil with Philippe's famous hot mustard, kimchee, and a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake
   Espressos: 1;   Coffee: 0 oz.;  Tea: 0 oz.;  Water: 70+ oz.


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Friday, February 17, 2017

#1818, Friday, February 17: Being not here


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Post 1818, Day 46 of 2017
- 2,238 days since I started this blog -
From Reverend Ken's Birthday Bash and Survivor's Ball:  "Starry Night"
Daily Comment
I'm human. I make mistakes. I don't live up to my ideals. In the moment, I forget what I believe, forget baskic principals, and act badly.

I have done actions I regret. I have spoken words I regret.

I'm not mindful all the time. I'm not present all the time. I'm not authentic all the time.

Which means I spend a lot of time working on forgiving myself.

It gets easier with practice, and, at the same time, these errors become fewer, and are realized closer to real-time.

That's how I think you become a better human being, at least socially.

I am grateful for the lessons my transgressions provide.


Food and Diet
Today's Weight:                      201.6 lbs.
Previous Weight (2/16/17):           201.8 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain:                       - 0.2 lbs.


Diet Comment
So, quite by accident, I fasted for twenty hours yesterday. No big deal, I guess, because, look, no big change.

Food Log
Breakfast
4:45pm: Cheese'n'greens omelet (three extra-large eggs, onions, peppers, Spring Mix, feta cheese, chia seeds, hemp seeds).

Lunch
9:30pm: Cottage cheese and a Quest bar.

Dinner
12:45am:  Cauliflower with dal tadka (lentil curry), kimchee, and a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake
   Espressos: 1;  Coffee: 0 oz.;  Tea: 0 oz.;  Water: 56+ oz.


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Thursday, February 16, 2017

#1817, Thursday, February 16: Snow and taxes


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Post 1817, Day 45 of 2017
- 2,237 days since I started this blog -
From Reverend Ken's Birthday Bash and Survivor's Ball:  "Starry Night"
Daily Comment
I had a lot of plans for today. I was going to get my tax forms from my brokerages (only available since last night, when I was otherwise busy), then there was a political fundraiser/concert I had bought a ticket for, and then an open mic I wanted to go to.

But it snowed, and snowed pretty hard, beginning last night and not ending while I was awake today.

Par for the course in Syracuse. I should probably get snow tires, I believe I would feel better about driving in the snow, since I have to drive everywhere to get around. But I decided to forgo the concert - chalk it up to a campaign contribution for the progressive musician running - I'm glad to help. And open mics come and go.

So I stayed home and did my taxes.

It took a long time - almost seven hours! - because I had to list all my stock and trading activity, which was quite a lot last year (and will be much more next year, since I only started my trading in October!.

But when it was done, I realized that the withholding from my last month at the VA would have covered my entire tax bill for the year. I will be getting the biggest refund I had ever gotten, I started re-doing my budget, and checking flights to Los Angeles and AirBnB listings for Sherman Oaks.

I didn't finish the flight stuff, my first choice was nixed by Alex, who won't be available part of the trip, forcing me to look later.

I am grateful to have an abundance mind-set, and I am almost superstitious in the way that has actually manifested.


Food and Diet
Today's Weight:                      201.8 lbs.
Previous Weight (2/15/17):           204.5 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain:                       - 2.7 lbs.


Diet Comment
Not only was yesterday's large one-day increase in weight anomalous, but with one very good, low-calorie, totally on-plan day, I've more than gotten rid of it, I'm at a new low weight for the year. And I'm not hungry.

Food Log
Breakfast
Skipped.

Lunch
Skipped.

Dinner
10:35pm:  London broil sandwich (on buttered Ezekiel 4:9 Flax sprouted grain bread, with Philipe's famous hot mustard) and a salad of Spring Mix greens with feta cheese and balsamic vinaigrette. For dessert, a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake
   Espressos: 1;  Coffee: 0 oz.;  Tea: 0 oz.;  Water: 56+ oz.


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Wednesday, February 15, 2017

#1816, Wednesday, February 15: No comment


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Post 1816, Day 44 of 2017
- 2,236 days since I started this blog -
From Reverend Ken's Birthday Bash and Survivor's Ball:  "Starry Night"
Daily Comment
Nothing to say today.

Food and Diet
Today's Weight:                      204.5 lbs.
Previous Weight (2/14/17):           203.0 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain:                       + 1.5 lbs.


Diet Comment
Well, so much for Valentine's Day indulgences. This'll be gone by the weekend.

Food Log
Breakfast
2:25pm:  Green protein smoothie with coconut milk, kefir, large organic egg, chia gel, kale, spinach, whey powder (36g protein), hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, moringa leaf powder, cinnamon, coconut oil and stevia-inulin blend.

Lunch
Skipped.

Dinner
12:05am:  A Quest bar.

Liquid Intake
   Espressos: 1;  Coffee: 22 oz.;  Tea: 0 oz.;  Water: 70+ oz.  and a shot of Jameson's Irish whiskey.


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Tuesday, February 14, 2017

#1815, Tuesday, February 14: I'm my Valentine


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Post 1815, Day 43 of 2017
- 2,235 days since I started this blog -
From Reverend Ken's Birthday Bash and Survivor's Ball:  "Starry Night"
Daily Comment
I decided, apropos of nothing, to celebrate Valentine's Day this year by giving myself a little romantic love.

Besides that obvious thing, I used a birthday coupon to take myself out on a cheap date to Ruby Tuesday's, and flirted with the waitress (who kindly flirted back).

I bought myself a bar of dark chocolate.

I went out and played with a bunch of friends at an open mic, and had a Jamerson's, neat.

I bought a ticket to a fundraiser concert for a musician who's running for City Council. I also made arrangements to see some good friends when I go downstate at the end of the month, and, along the way, see Buffy St. Marie at Woodstock's Bearsville Theater.

I had long phone conversations with my friend Kokomo Slim down in New Orleans and with Marco in Florida. I've already arranged my trip to NOLA, and now I'm making plans for another trip to Wilbur-by-the-Sea early in March.


I watched some of The Fault In Our Stars while I ate the chocolate, and decided it had been an excellent Valentine's Day.

I am so grateful I am in love with myself these days - it hasn't always been that way.


Food and Diet
Today's Weight:                      203.0 lbs.
Previous Weight (2/13/17):           203.1 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain:                       - 0.1 lbs.


Diet Comment
Not a gain. So, good.

Food Log
Breakfast
4:15pm, at Ruby Tuesday:
Birthday coupon special: Smokehouse burger (bacon, cheddar, tomato, lettuce, onion rings - no sauce, no bun) and the salad bar (too much to remember, but pretty much all on-plan).
Lunch
5:45pm:  A Quest bar.

Dinner
12:15am:  My Valentine's Day treat, a 72% Cocoa chocolate bar.

Liquid Intake
   Espressos: 1;  Coffee: 0 oz.;  Tea: 0 oz.;  Water: 78+ oz.  and a shot of Jameson's Irish whiskey.


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Monday, February 13, 2017

#1814, Monday, February 13: Music choice


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Post 1814, Day 42 of 2017
- 2,234 days since I started this blog -
From Reverend Ken's Birthday Bash and Survivor's Ball:  "Starry Night"
Daily Comment
I have a dilemma.

For the last month, I have been practicing with a guitarist and drummer I met when I was looking for projects at the end of last year.

They are both very nice guys, but the music isn't what I hoped it would be.

For the last two sessions, I have come away with the feeling that I didn't want to do this any more.

But I also felt that I might be elitist, snobby - that there was, in fact, something there worth developing, and that my ideas about the relative quality of 'my' music were getting in the way.

It's a conundrum. I know I am feeling a conflict between what I am hearing and what I want to hear that isn't based on me controlling things, but of a set of expectations about what happens when good musicians get together with a common goal. But expectations are limiting, and mine seem to be getting in the way of my enjoying what's happening with these guys, who I like, but somehow can't get it together. It's a feeling of discomfort. It isn't gelling. It isn't sounding musical to me.

What makes it worse, is that I was just on the other end, fired from a trio when the other guys weren't comfortable and felt it wasn't gelling. Is this just my response to that? Is it just that I want to be on the other side, and, having been rejected, reject someone else?

I want to know what lesson I'm supposed to be learning in this situation. There is one - there is always one when you feel conflicted like this. Is it patience? Is it how to be of service? Is it to figure out what the kind thing to do is?

I know in the past, when I've quit on something or someone, some group, I've had regrets, at least briefly. I'm going to let this run a while longer - see if I get more clarity.

Nonetheless, I'm grateful to have these choices.


Food and Diet
Today's Weight:                      203.1 lbs.
Previous Weight (2/10/17):           203.6 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain:                       - 0.5 lbs.


Diet Comment
Pretty good weekend! I'm back to 'stepping' in the right direction.

Food Log
Breakfast
5:15pm, at CoreLife Eatery:
Tuna poke salad with: Kale, cabbage, quinoa, cucumber, carrots, scallions, ginger,edamame, avocado, tuna poke, sesame seeds, almonds and miso-sesame dressing. Not shown: A cup of chicken bone broth.
Lunch
9:45pm:  London broil with Philippe's famous hot mustard, and a Quest bar.

Dinner
12:05am:  Pepperoni, mozzarella cheese and carrots.

Liquid Intake
   Espressos: 0;  Coffee: 0 oz.;  Tea: 0 oz.;  Water: 56+ oz. 


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Friday, February 10, 2017

#1813, Friday, February 10: Syracuse


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Post 1813, Day 41 of 2017
- 2,233 days since I started this blog -
From Reverend Ken's Birthday Bash and Survivor's Ball:  "Starry Night"
Daily Comment
Syracuse is a good place to live - it has been for me.

You have now read an unprecedented first sentence writen about Syracuse that didn't mention snow (it took a second sentence).

The snow doesn't impact me much. I grew up in New York City, and although the Winters were slightly shorter and less intense, I recall the snow being a bigger deal there than here, where it snows more than any other metropolitan are in the US (it's true - one would think Buffalo or Anchorage would have more snowfall, but they don't). And it was definitely a much bigger problem when I lived in Duchess Country, about three hours downstate.

Although snow was rare in North Carolina, it was a disaster whenever it happened. What happened more frequently during the Winter was ice storms, and they were a major hassle indeed.

OK - that's enough about that. The US News and World Report just came out with their 100 best cities to live in (ranking the cities in the US with a population of more than a hundred thousand (which Syracuse is in 175th place, size wise). Syracuse came in at #28 (not bad; but dig this: It was the top placer (#1) from New York State).

The reasons are not the reasons I like living here. My reason boils down to one: I like the music scene here. A lot.

I know some local musicians who think I'm daft. It is difficult to make a living in music here. Gigs are hard to come by, pay is at 1970s levels. But the musicians are wonderful, generous, welcoming; and there is a lot of talent here.

And i am Fool, the best playing experience I've ever had.

When the music's over, I'll leave. Until then, I'm damned grateful to be here.


Food and Diet
Today's Weight:                      203.6 lbs.
Previous Weight (2/9/17):            203.4 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain:                       + 0.2 lbs.


Diet Comment
Ahh, well - there's yesterday's extra carbs showing up. I'm ready for the weekend, and should be able to come back Monday weighing a little less. Also, with a new scale, I'll be able to know my weight down to the tenth - no more am I bound to even-order two-tenths weights.

Food Log
Breakfast
6:25pm:  Green protein smoothie with coconut milk, kefir, large organic egg, chia gel, kale, spinach, wild blueberries, celery, whey powder (36g protein), hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, moringa leaf powder, cinnamon, coconut oil and stevia-inulin blend.

Lunch
9:45pm:  Burger and cole slaw.

Dinner
12:05am:  Pepperoni,  kimchee, and a Quest bar.


Liquid Intake
   Espressos: 1;  Coffee: 0 oz.;  Tea: 0 oz.;  Water: 80+ oz. 


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Thursday, February 9, 2017

#1812, Thursday, February 9: Witness for Buddhism


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Post 1812, Day 40 of 2017
- 2,232 days since I started this blog -
From Reverend Ken's Birthday Bash and Survivor's Ball:  "Starry Night"
Daily Comment
I have recently seen a bit of Buddhist-philosophy outreach on my part positively influence a few friends.

Namely, they've responded positively, and made changes, where, in the past, they had been defensive about any ideas I offered up from that direction.

To be sure, their resistance to these ideas is fine. Buddhism, which I insist on thinking of not as a religion but a philosophy, is not doctrinaire. It does not require you to believe or have faith in anything. It does not say this is what you should do, think, or say. Instead, it says, this is the truth, but don't take 'our' word for it. Check it out. See if it is the truth, then see if it works for you. On that basis, my friends have made some changes in their lives.

Both have suffered, one with loss and anger issues, the other with illness and depression; and their suffering will continue, surely, but diminished a bit, with less influence and more feelings of happiness both have reduced their pain.

The key was that both read some books I gave them. Books by Buddhists, but, in fact, more about the teachings, less about the Buddhism itself, in the tradition of the Dalai Lama's statement, "Do not try to use what you learn from Buddhism to be a Buddhist; use it to be a better whatever-you-already-are."

I just read an article, and forwarded it to them, that has summed up the reasons I identify as a Buddhist. The article shows how the 1st Noble Truth, that life is suffering, explains much of what we see and how we understand what is happening. It also has this great line: "The significance of the Buddhist teaching lies in the fact that it isn’t doctrinal. It’s not an attempt to tell us how things should be, it’s more a way of bringing our attention to the way things are." (The First Truth, by Ajahn Sumedho posted by Buddhism Now)

Another thing that happened recently is that both of my friends (who have never met each other or lived in the same state, as far as I know - they're not even Facebook friends) separately and apropos of nothing in both cases, told me, 'I can see how this will benefit me, and by extension, benefit others.' Wow! Again: separately, within days of each other - and without any sort of prompting on my part.

I'm grateful to them - as only a witness can be.


Food and Diet
Today's Weight:                      203.4 lbs.
Previous Weight (2/9/17):            203.8 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain:                       - 0.4 lbs.


Diet Comment
That's better, but maybe it's just the new scale I got. Oh, yeah, did I mention I got a new scale? Reads to the 10th, puts my weight and body fat estimate on my phone. Yeah, techology.

Food Log
Breakfast
5:15pm, at CoreLife Eatery:
Tuna poke salad with: Kale, cabbage, quinoa, cucumber, carrots, scallions, ginger,edamame, avocado, tuna poke, sesame seeds, almonds and miso-sesame dressing. Not shown: A cup of chicken bone broth.
Lunch
8:10pm:  Vegetarian chili from CoreLife, which was a freebie sample. It was quite delicious, but I fear it contained quite a few off-plan ingredients, of which corn was the most obvious. Also, carrots with home-made mayonnaise and a Quest bar.

Dinner
12:05am:  Pepperoni,  kimchee, carrots with home-made mayonnaise and a Quest bar.


Liquid Intake
   Espressos: 1;  Coffee: 0 oz.;  Tea: 0 oz.;  Water: 60+ oz. 


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