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Post 1920, Day 235 of 2017
- 2,427 days since I started this blog -
- 2,427 days since I started this blog -
I went to a rehearsal with Modern Mudd, and saw Charlie, lead guitarist for the band, brother of the band's drummer Art, who died unexpectedly last Saturday.
Bittersweet. I was surely glad to see him, but the pain he was going through, the feeling of loss and abandonment were weighing heavily on him. It was emotional, and I left the long rehearsal (prepping a new drummer for a gig on Saturday) drained and tired.
But also with an obligation to get out to Shifty's open mic to play with Scuba Gear.
The regular house band lineup was altered for a sub on guitar and vocals - the stage setup was very crowded, and it didn't favor my band. There were only two mics, we needed three, and the lack of space on stage made it difficult to share a mic with the guitarist (for backup vocals on one song).
Difficulty I'm having learning the two-dozen original songs (Brian writes very complex chord changes and his arrangements also tend to be structurally unusual) took away the usual ease with which I approach sets at open mics.
Then, when we got to the third song, a cover of Aretha's "Baby, I Love You," A well-known guitarist 'sat in' - and not knowing our arrangement, ruined the song (at least as far as I was concerned - it is the only time we've performed the song and not gotten a huge positive audience reaction).
I ended up feeling badly about the whole night - the emotional rehearsal and the open mic performance. And, I needed to take a dump and didn't want to do that in the bar's toilet,, So, I left early.
Too much emotional stress for me. I know I'm the source - wanting to control outcomes, and my attachment (addiction?) to getting into the zone when I play being the source of my dis-ease in this case. Probably nobody but me was dissatisfied with the open mic performance, and I got positive feedback I chose to ignore.
But I'm surrounded by people who want to help me get the results (good music) I'm looking for, and also to help me get comfortable with the songs I'm not yet there with. I couldn't be more grateful for them and that.
Bittersweet. I was surely glad to see him, but the pain he was going through, the feeling of loss and abandonment were weighing heavily on him. It was emotional, and I left the long rehearsal (prepping a new drummer for a gig on Saturday) drained and tired.
But also with an obligation to get out to Shifty's open mic to play with Scuba Gear.
The regular house band lineup was altered for a sub on guitar and vocals - the stage setup was very crowded, and it didn't favor my band. There were only two mics, we needed three, and the lack of space on stage made it difficult to share a mic with the guitarist (for backup vocals on one song).
Difficulty I'm having learning the two-dozen original songs (Brian writes very complex chord changes and his arrangements also tend to be structurally unusual) took away the usual ease with which I approach sets at open mics.
Then, when we got to the third song, a cover of Aretha's "Baby, I Love You," A well-known guitarist 'sat in' - and not knowing our arrangement, ruined the song (at least as far as I was concerned - it is the only time we've performed the song and not gotten a huge positive audience reaction).
I ended up feeling badly about the whole night - the emotional rehearsal and the open mic performance. And, I needed to take a dump and didn't want to do that in the bar's toilet,, So, I left early.
Too much emotional stress for me. I know I'm the source - wanting to control outcomes, and my attachment (addiction?) to getting into the zone when I play being the source of my dis-ease in this case. Probably nobody but me was dissatisfied with the open mic performance, and I got positive feedback I chose to ignore.
But I'm surrounded by people who want to help me get the results (good music) I'm looking for, and also to help me get comfortable with the songs I'm not yet there with. I couldn't be more grateful for them and that.
Food and Diet
Today's Weight: 202.2 lbs.
Today's Weight: 202.2 lbs.
Previous Weight (8/22/17): 202.3 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain: - 0.1 lbs.
Diet Comment
Better than no progress at all, I guess.
Food Log
Breakfast
3:05pm: Green-red protein smoothie with coconut-almond milk, kefir, large organic egg, chia gel, kale, spinach, strawberries, cherries, blueberries, whey powder (24g protein), coconut oil, hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, moringa leaf powder, celery, cinnamon, turmeric, vanilla extract and stevia-inulin blend.
Lunch
8:35pm: A slice of Ezekiel 4:9 Flax sprouted grain bread with Dubliner cheese and guacamole.
Dinner
12:45am: Chopped salad (spinach, Spring mix greens, red cabbage, shaved parmesan cheese, Sriracha chicken breast, balsamic vinaigrette).
Liquid Intake
3:05pm: Green-red protein smoothie with coconut-almond milk, kefir, large organic egg, chia gel, kale, spinach, strawberries, cherries, blueberries, whey powder (24g protein), coconut oil, hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, moringa leaf powder, celery, cinnamon, turmeric, vanilla extract and stevia-inulin blend.
Lunch
8:35pm: A slice of Ezekiel 4:9 Flax sprouted grain bread with Dubliner cheese and guacamole.
Dinner
12:45am: Chopped salad (spinach, Spring mix greens, red cabbage, shaved parmesan cheese, Sriracha chicken breast, balsamic vinaigrette).
Liquid Intake
Espressos: 1; Coffee: 22 oz.; Tea: 0 oz.; Water: 72+ oz.; and a shot of Jameson's Irish whiskey
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