February 9 - High Carbs, High Calories

Post 737, Day 40 of 2013
 - and 771 days since I started this blog -

Daily Comment

I have been processing the loss of someone who once meant the world to me - when I was very young.

The girl who first saw something in me more than I saw in myself - my first girlfriend when I moved out on my own.

I've been thinking about the many good times, the amazing times, the things I did with her for the first time, and the things I did with her I never did with anyone else. The things I did at that time of my life I will never repeat. All these things, some that seem positive, some negative to me, that I did in her company, that we did, that shaped me when I was seventeen years old.

That's how long our love affair lasted. One year. I was eighteen when I ended it, and broke her heart. I know this because she told me, and, after a time, when we became friends and had both moved on, she said she had never been so hurt before or since. She said the same when we reconnected a couple of years ago through Facebook.

During the time we were together, I sometimes treated her badly, and I am full of regret for that. She sometimes treated me badly, and I have long since forgiven her for that. My only excuse for my bad behavior with her was that I was innocent, naive, and even gullible, a believer in things I should have questioned, deaf and blind to things that were inconsistent with what I believed.

One of the things I found hard to believe was that she loved me. I did not understand that our relationship was envied by others, and those others eventually poisoned my mind, and our relationship.

You were too good for me, Patty, and I never did and never will forget you. RIP.

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 Food and Diet Section

First-half year 2013 daily weight

Today's Weight:         205.8 lbs

Yesterday's Weight:     205.0 lbs

Day Net Loss/Gain:      + 0.8 lbs

Diet Comment

Last night's late cheat/fail did me in. We'll see how today's first HCHC day goes.

Food Log 

Breakfast
Skipped.

Lunch

Ezekiel Golden Flax sprouted grain cereal with blueberries, almond milk, hemp seeds and stevia-inulin blend. Not shown: Made-by-me trail mix with dark chocolate, almonds, cashews, dried cranberries and pumpkin seeds.

Dinner

Brown rice fusilli and red lentils with sausage and onion spaghetti sauce.

Snack
Another bowl of Golden Flax cereal and blueberries with almond milk and stevia blend. No hemp seeds this time.

Liquid Intake   

   Coffee:  30 oz,  Water:  48+ oz 

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