Post 2676
- 11 years and 176 days since I started this blog -
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| Night Drop, June 6, 2021 |
It's weird that a happy person can be sad.
I have been sad since my visit to NYC when Andy died. It isn't at all unusual to be sad when you lose a brother, of course. The weird part is that I'm still happy. At the same time. It's just that the sad part is getting all the play.
I have been paralyzed with the sadness. I haven't done a whole lot more than prepare my food, eat it, watch tv and sleep since I got back to Syracuse.
I've invested in new kitchen appliances - a replacement toaster oven that is an air fryer, too, and a full-size, full-power microwave, and a set of new microwave cookware, and a new carbon steel frying pan.
Retail therapy.
But still sad.
I have been sad since my visit to NYC when Andy died. It isn't at all unusual to be sad when you lose a brother, of course. The weird part is that I'm still happy. At the same time. It's just that the sad part is getting all the play.
I have been paralyzed with the sadness. I haven't done a whole lot more than prepare my food, eat it, watch tv and sleep since I got back to Syracuse.
I've invested in new kitchen appliances - a replacement toaster oven that is an air fryer, too, and a full-size, full-power microwave, and a set of new microwave cookware, and a new carbon steel frying pan.
Retail therapy.
But still sad.
I've withdrawn from doing anything other than medical stuff (this is my season for that, I guess. Lots of appointments next week, and throughout July). I smoke pot, watch TV and cry a lot.
And still the happiest guy I know, except, not so much right now.
I'm grateful for my life. I'll be more grateful soon, I think.
Food and Diet 
Today's Weight: 199.9 lbs.
I'm grateful for my life. I'll be more grateful soon, I think.
Previous Weight (6/24/21): 199.5 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain: + 0.4 lbs.
Diet Comment
Food Log
Breakfast
2:45pm: Baked cod with pesto sauce, and Brussels sprouts.
Lunch
6:30pm: Cottage cheese and air-popped popcorn with olive oil and chili-lime seasoning.
Dinner
8:10pm: Avocado toast, oatmeal with yogurt, walnuts and cheddar cheese, and a Quest bar.
Liquid Intake
2:45pm: Baked cod with pesto sauce, and Brussels sprouts.
Lunch
6:30pm: Cottage cheese and air-popped popcorn with olive oil and chili-lime seasoning.
Dinner
8:10pm: Avocado toast, oatmeal with yogurt, walnuts and cheddar cheese, and a Quest bar.
Liquid Intake
Espressos: 0; Coffee: 0 oz.; Water: 72+ oz.;
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