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Post 1769, Day 321 of 2016
- 2,147 days since I started this blog -
- 2,147 days since I started this blog -
A couple of days of playing music and I'm feeling better again.
I think the honeymoon phase of my retirement may be drawing to a close now. I have begun to see a lack of structure in my day-to-day life that is pretty much keeping me from doing some things I actually, really want to do.
I haven't been improving my guitar playing. I haven't touched my upright bass. I haven't done any housecleaning. My exercise plan hasn't been started.
I have, at least, gotten back to meditating regularly. That's been a huge help in keeping me buoyant. I've gotten back to reading more as well.
I realize that there was more to my emotional pull-back than just what's happened in the music scene. It was also affected by financial concerns, with my portfolio taking a big hit in the same time period, including my day-trading experiment.
It may be that my day-trading experiment is a bust. I haven't (yet) lost any money doing it, thanks to one great trade. But most of my other trades have busted, and I'm trying to see if the problem is with my strategy or my execution. This little doubt has had a negative effect.
Still, that experiment involved less than five percent of my portfolio, and the rest has been making a good recovery from the pre-election drop thanks to the post-election rally, and, on the whole, has vastly exceeded my goals (it still exceeded them, even when the recent losses reached their low point).
I'm considering establishing a daily routine - at least a 'wake-up' schedule, because my entire day has been spent lolling around between the computer and, when that gets intense, TV. Only evenings, when I go out to play, have felt productive.
The ability to have these thoughts, make these plans, is something I am very grateful for. In other words, I'm still waking up grateful just to be alive.
I think the honeymoon phase of my retirement may be drawing to a close now. I have begun to see a lack of structure in my day-to-day life that is pretty much keeping me from doing some things I actually, really want to do.
I haven't been improving my guitar playing. I haven't touched my upright bass. I haven't done any housecleaning. My exercise plan hasn't been started.
I have, at least, gotten back to meditating regularly. That's been a huge help in keeping me buoyant. I've gotten back to reading more as well.
I realize that there was more to my emotional pull-back than just what's happened in the music scene. It was also affected by financial concerns, with my portfolio taking a big hit in the same time period, including my day-trading experiment.
It may be that my day-trading experiment is a bust. I haven't (yet) lost any money doing it, thanks to one great trade. But most of my other trades have busted, and I'm trying to see if the problem is with my strategy or my execution. This little doubt has had a negative effect.
Still, that experiment involved less than five percent of my portfolio, and the rest has been making a good recovery from the pre-election drop thanks to the post-election rally, and, on the whole, has vastly exceeded my goals (it still exceeded them, even when the recent losses reached their low point).
I'm considering establishing a daily routine - at least a 'wake-up' schedule, because my entire day has been spent lolling around between the computer and, when that gets intense, TV. Only evenings, when I go out to play, have felt productive.
The ability to have these thoughts, make these plans, is something I am very grateful for. In other words, I'm still waking up grateful just to be alive.
Food and Diet
Today's Weight: 202.6 lbs.
Diet Comment
Previous Weight (11/15): 203.0 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain: - 0.4 lbs.
Diet Comment
Slowly, the weight comes off.
Food Log
Breakfast
5:30pm: Blueberry-kale protein smoothie with coconut milk, kefir, extra-large organic egg, chia gel, frozen wild blueberries, kale, whey powder (36g protein), hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, celery, moringa leaf powder, cinnamon, coconut oil and stevia-inulin blend.
5:30pm: Blueberry-kale protein smoothie with coconut milk, kefir, extra-large organic egg, chia gel, frozen wild blueberries, kale, whey powder (36g protein), hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, celery, moringa leaf powder, cinnamon, coconut oil and stevia-inulin blend.
Lunch
Skipped.
Dinner
Dinner
1:45am: Buffalo chicken breast, pepperoni, dark chocolate and a Quest bar.
Liquid Intake
Espressos: 1; Coffee: 22 oz.; Tea: 0 oz.; Water: 66+ oz. and a shot of Jameson's Irish whiskey
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so- now you know why I have my work ethic- without it, I do nothing. Love you
ReplyDeleteWell, we'll see. There is nothing I want to do that HAS to be done, and nothing on a deadline. I take care of business, but so far there hasn't been motivation enough for anything except the meditation. Will I make a schedule? Maybe. If I make it, will I stick to it? Probably not. If I make it and stick to it, will I achieve any goals? Who knows? Not me.
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