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Post 1764, Day 314 of 2016
- 2,140 days since I started this blog -
- 2,140 days since I started this blog -
Over the past six weeks, my equanimity, the happy balance I have been enjoying, has been challenged.
There has been a contraction in the local music scene, my music scene. My investments have been doing poorly. The Presidential election has created a negative public atmosphere.
On the music front, my playing opportunities have been more limited: Four of the places where I played have closed or changed their music policy/personnel and there have been fewer opportunities to play. At the same time, family illness, job changes and a lack of gigs have seen little playing time with i am Fool: Our always-erratic rehearsal schedule has gotten sparse, and there are only two future gigs scheduled. October represented the first whole month at which I did not have a paying gig in more than four years.
In the run-up to the election, and, so far, in its aftermath, my investment portfolio took a hit. While still easily surpassing my investment goals, during this period it has trended negatively.
Which fits the whole atmosphere of this election cycle, which attempted to fill any attention gap with negativity.
Of course, the result wasn't pleasing either.
With all this, I have to work a little harder to stay centered and maintain my happy state. To remember that I'm still here, no better at seeing the future than I have been. Still feeling that if I show up with a smile - just show up - and look at source of the happiness, it is still there.
So I went to a friends house to jam, and, although the music wasn't very happening, it was still pleasant (with a bass in my hands, it's a good time). Then I went to an open mic and played with some better musicians, made some good music, and had a great time. In those playing moments, everything is as it should be - there're no presidents, no stock market, no negativity. No worries.
Maybe playing is a refuge, a retreat from the travails of this uncertain environment. I have to accept that possibility. If so, it may be a weak move, but it's a forward and positive move, and it connects me to something I find conducive to happiness.
I'm very grateful that my life keeps offering me this abundance, this capacity to stay in 'the game' and keep realizing this happiness.
There has been a contraction in the local music scene, my music scene. My investments have been doing poorly. The Presidential election has created a negative public atmosphere.
On the music front, my playing opportunities have been more limited: Four of the places where I played have closed or changed their music policy/personnel and there have been fewer opportunities to play. At the same time, family illness, job changes and a lack of gigs have seen little playing time with i am Fool: Our always-erratic rehearsal schedule has gotten sparse, and there are only two future gigs scheduled. October represented the first whole month at which I did not have a paying gig in more than four years.
In the run-up to the election, and, so far, in its aftermath, my investment portfolio took a hit. While still easily surpassing my investment goals, during this period it has trended negatively.
Which fits the whole atmosphere of this election cycle, which attempted to fill any attention gap with negativity.
Of course, the result wasn't pleasing either.
With all this, I have to work a little harder to stay centered and maintain my happy state. To remember that I'm still here, no better at seeing the future than I have been. Still feeling that if I show up with a smile - just show up - and look at source of the happiness, it is still there.
So I went to a friends house to jam, and, although the music wasn't very happening, it was still pleasant (with a bass in my hands, it's a good time). Then I went to an open mic and played with some better musicians, made some good music, and had a great time. In those playing moments, everything is as it should be - there're no presidents, no stock market, no negativity. No worries.
Maybe playing is a refuge, a retreat from the travails of this uncertain environment. I have to accept that possibility. If so, it may be a weak move, but it's a forward and positive move, and it connects me to something I find conducive to happiness.
I'm very grateful that my life keeps offering me this abundance, this capacity to stay in 'the game' and keep realizing this happiness.
Food and Diet
Today's Weight: 200.2 lbs.
Diet Comment
Previous Weight (11/8): 202.0 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain: - 1.8 lbs.
Diet Comment
My weight has been bouncing around inexplicably. OK, so be it.
Food Log
Breakfast
2:30pm: A Quest bar.
2:30pm: A Quest bar.
Lunch
6:00pm, at Core Eatery:
Dinner
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| Tuna poke salad with: Kale, cabbage, quinoa, cucumber, carrots, scallions, ginger,edamame, avocado, tuna poke, sesame seeds, almonds and miso-sesame dressing. |
12:15am: London broil, kimchee, and a Quest bar.
Liquid Intake
Espressos: 1; Coffee: 0 oz.; Tea: 0 oz.; Water: 82+ oz. and a shot of Jameson's Irish whiskey.
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