Thursday, September 18 Friends in pain

Post 1278, Day 261 of 2014
- 1,357 days since I started this blog -

Daily Comment

It is, of course, difficult to see people in your circle of friends and loved ones in pain.

I am not immune to the social training that encourages mixed feelings, including guilt and self-identification in the mix with sympathy, empathy and compassion.

I think of all the feelings - very mixed for me, right now, when I have people I am very close to and regularly involved with, in real pain, dealing with complex and long-term medical issues - the only useful one is compassion.

My other feelings are confused and confusing, and their source probably isn't the place where compassion comes from, but from past experiences when I learned a less-than-natural response to situations that only really demanded a genuinely compassionate response.

Luckily, I have other training that allows me to express compassion, and so, allows me to be present with my friends undergoing difficulties, in a way that is meaningful and positive.

That is separate from me falling back into old patterns of guilt and fear in the face of other people's problems - that is something to be dealt with on an ongoing basis, and I am doing that.   

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 Food and Diet Section

2014 Daily Weight

Today's Weight:          208.2 lbs

Previous Weight:         206.4 lbs

Day Net Loss/Gain:       + 1.8 lbs

Diet Comment

A day's worth of food plus a day's worth of Quest bars - oh, the immoderation. Not to mention the double helping of Jameson's. Maybe helping is the wrong word, but I was feeling good after playing a few sets, and drinking for free...

Food Log 

Breakfast
A cocoa-hemp-kale protein shake (almond-coconut milk, kefir, kale, large organic egg, whey powder (24g protein), hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, chia gel, celery, moringa leaf powder, cinnamon and stevia-inulin blend.

Lunch
A Quest bar.

Dinner
Roasted turkey on baby kale, baby spinach, chard and cole slaw mix with balsamic vinaigrette.

Snack
Celery with home-made mayonnaise, Quest bar.

Liquid Intake

   Coffee:  22 oz.   Water: 102+ oz. 

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