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Post 1798, Day 20 of 2017
- 2,212 days since I started this blog -
- 2,212 days since I started this blog -
I go out and listen to bands, and during the course of the night, I have a whiskey or two. Neat. With a side of club soda. It has become a ritual.
I went out tonight, listened to a band, and didn't get a whiskey. And I missed it.
That's when I realized stopping would be a good thing, not just a healthy choice.
I fear habit almost as much as I fear addiction. I always want to be free to make a choice, and want it to be a conscious choice. Habitual behavior undercuts that.
I was so pleased with myself for having this thought, this feeling, I felt myself opening up. I did something I've never done, and challenged a friend in the bar to a game of pool. In part because it was a completely different behavior, in part because I was just feeling it.
I'm a crap pool player, and my friend is very good. But I was feeling something, and it just seemed right.
I shot the best game of billiards in my life.
I left the bar feeling nothing but good.
I am grateful for my life.
I went out tonight, listened to a band, and didn't get a whiskey. And I missed it.
That's when I realized stopping would be a good thing, not just a healthy choice.
I fear habit almost as much as I fear addiction. I always want to be free to make a choice, and want it to be a conscious choice. Habitual behavior undercuts that.
I was so pleased with myself for having this thought, this feeling, I felt myself opening up. I did something I've never done, and challenged a friend in the bar to a game of pool. In part because it was a completely different behavior, in part because I was just feeling it.
I'm a crap pool player, and my friend is very good. But I was feeling something, and it just seemed right.
I shot the best game of billiards in my life.
I left the bar feeling nothing but good.
I am grateful for my life.
Food and Diet
Today's Weight: 206.4 lbs.
Diet Comment
Previous Weight (1/19/17): 206.2 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain: + 0.2 lbs.
Diet Comment
After gorging myself on nuts and dark chocolate last night, this is an unexpectedly small gain. Still, this hasn't been a great week. I will tow the line this weekend, and come back lighter Monday.
Food Log
Breakfast
5:55pm: Fritta with eggs, London broil, Dubliner cheese, chia seeds, hemp seeds, kale, spinach, chard, onions, and peppers.
5:55pm: Fritta with eggs, London broil, Dubliner cheese, chia seeds, hemp seeds, kale, spinach, chard, onions, and peppers.
Lunch
9:00pm: A Quest bar.
Dinner
1:15am: Pepperoni, mozzarella cheese and a Quest bar.
Liquid Intake
Espressos: 1; Coffee: 0 oz.; Tea: 0 oz.; Water: 90+ oz.
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I am in constant awe that you are keeping your weight so stable. And it sounds like you are still having fun. Miss you. love you, Joan
ReplyDeleteLOL - do not be in awe of me. Today's post-weekend result has me struggling. But I am still having fun. Love and miss you, too
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