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Post 1754, Day 299 of 2016
- 2,125 days since I started this blog -
- 2,125 days since I started this blog -
A good rehearsal with i am Fool tonight. Finally.
And another lesson in living - thinking about the future is the source of all anxiety, and nobody knows what the future holds.
Not that anything happened at (or before) rehearsal to make the lesson hit home. It was an ordinary practice, we got to some new material, went over some of the most recently added material. Everything was normal.
It is a weird sense of equilibrium - if you can call it that. It feels like it, but as if things have balanced out at a slightly different point - like getting your balance on uneven parallel bars.
Which, of course, is the other life lesson - things change. Nothing is permanent. Equilibrium is a constant balancing act, always maintained by change, and whose realization or manifestation is brief. Creating or realizing equilibrium is the job of a servo-system, achieved, tentatively, by constant correction.
Is this confirmation bias? Maybe. I am not immune to fallacy - but it seems like a reasonable representation of my Universe.
So, to recap: Everything changes, the future is not knowable. Perceived equilibrium (like measured equilibrium), is impermanent, and a point around which everything changes.
Change has been an ambivalent factor in my life - sometimes raising me, sometimes laying me low. But, like the cliche, it has been constant.
And, of course, that is the only way to consider the future - as my perception of a series of changes coming, about which I know nothing. On that basis, resistance is futile. However, since all the accumulated changes of my life have brought me right where I am, I'm pretty optimistic.
And another lesson in living - thinking about the future is the source of all anxiety, and nobody knows what the future holds.
Not that anything happened at (or before) rehearsal to make the lesson hit home. It was an ordinary practice, we got to some new material, went over some of the most recently added material. Everything was normal.
It is a weird sense of equilibrium - if you can call it that. It feels like it, but as if things have balanced out at a slightly different point - like getting your balance on uneven parallel bars.
Which, of course, is the other life lesson - things change. Nothing is permanent. Equilibrium is a constant balancing act, always maintained by change, and whose realization or manifestation is brief. Creating or realizing equilibrium is the job of a servo-system, achieved, tentatively, by constant correction.
Is this confirmation bias? Maybe. I am not immune to fallacy - but it seems like a reasonable representation of my Universe.
So, to recap: Everything changes, the future is not knowable. Perceived equilibrium (like measured equilibrium), is impermanent, and a point around which everything changes.
Change has been an ambivalent factor in my life - sometimes raising me, sometimes laying me low. But, like the cliche, it has been constant.
And, of course, that is the only way to consider the future - as my perception of a series of changes coming, about which I know nothing. On that basis, resistance is futile. However, since all the accumulated changes of my life have brought me right where I am, I'm pretty optimistic.
Food and Diet
Today's Weight: 201.8 lbs.
Diet Comment
Previous Weight (10/24): 204.0 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain: - 2.2 lbs.
Diet Comment
That oversized one-day loss is due to the transient nature of the weight gain - mostly due to one day's continuous eating a few days back. When you break the pattern, you get an oversized rebound (that seems to work both ways).
Food Log
Breakfast
3:30pm:
3:30pm:
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| Omelet with peppers, onion, greens, chia seeds, hemp seeds, feta and parmesan cheeses and bacon. |
Lunch
8:00pm: A Quest bar.
Dinner
11:45pm: A big hunk of Dubliner cheese and a Quest bar
11:45pm: A big hunk of Dubliner cheese and a Quest bar
Liquid Intake
Espressos: 1; Coffee: 22 oz.; Tea: 0 oz.; Water: 80+ oz.
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