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Post 1753, Day 298 of 2016
- 2,124 days since I started this blog -
- 2,124 days since I started this blog -
I guess I'm not ready to execute my 'Plan B' right now. To a degree, I've been reacting to that idea for a month.
Today, I've gone a month without a gig. Also, the least playing I've done in six years.
I have said that when the music's over, I'd leave (that's plan B). And there were times in the past month when it has felt like that.
I do have some gigs in November. There's a set with i am Fool on the schedule - but the band hasn't played together one time since September 24 - not even a rehearsal. There are logistical conflicts at every turn - it's no one band member's fault.
I've been rehearsing with another band, but I'm not particularly happy that that band has never rehearsed with all members. And the jams haven't produced much interesting music. It hasn't been satisfying, but it also hasn't been terrible enough to pull the plug.
I don't see anything on the horizon, either.
But that is meaningless. I didn't foresee any aspect of my current situation coming. I didn't see a band on my horizon when I met i am Fool. I didn't see the VA job coming when that happened. I was just open to whatever, and I was non-specifically moving in that direction (playing in a band, looking for a job) when those things happened.
Worry about the future? Not me. I've dispelled that negative feeling, that anxiety, that comes when the future is not giving any clues or hints.
I've got too much to be grateful for right now, in the present.
Today, I've gone a month without a gig. Also, the least playing I've done in six years.
I have said that when the music's over, I'd leave (that's plan B). And there were times in the past month when it has felt like that.
I do have some gigs in November. There's a set with i am Fool on the schedule - but the band hasn't played together one time since September 24 - not even a rehearsal. There are logistical conflicts at every turn - it's no one band member's fault.
I've been rehearsing with another band, but I'm not particularly happy that that band has never rehearsed with all members. And the jams haven't produced much interesting music. It hasn't been satisfying, but it also hasn't been terrible enough to pull the plug.
I don't see anything on the horizon, either.
But that is meaningless. I didn't foresee any aspect of my current situation coming. I didn't see a band on my horizon when I met i am Fool. I didn't see the VA job coming when that happened. I was just open to whatever, and I was non-specifically moving in that direction (playing in a band, looking for a job) when those things happened.
Worry about the future? Not me. I've dispelled that negative feeling, that anxiety, that comes when the future is not giving any clues or hints.
I've got too much to be grateful for right now, in the present.
Food and Diet
Today's Weight: 204.0 lbs.
Diet Comment
Previous Weight (10/21): 201.2 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain: + 3.8 lbs.
Diet Comment
The weight I put on over the weekend, for once, had less to do with what I ate than of how much. When you eat so much protein it triggers an insulin response similar to when you eat too many carbohydrates - the definition of too much protein - you undo the good of eating a low-carb diet. This is what happened Saturday. As I return to a normal diet, this temporary weight will come off.
Food Log
Breakfast
5:35pm: Green protein smoothie with coconut milk, kefir, extra-large organic egg, chia gel, kale, whey powder (36g protein), hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, celery, moringa leaf powder, cinnamon, coconut oil and stevia-inulin blend.
5:35pm: Green protein smoothie with coconut milk, kefir, extra-large organic egg, chia gel, kale, whey powder (36g protein), hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, celery, moringa leaf powder, cinnamon, coconut oil and stevia-inulin blend.
Lunch
8:00pm: A Quest bar.
Dinner
11:45pm: Roast beef with Phillipe's hot mustard and a Quest bar
11:45pm: Roast beef with Phillipe's hot mustard and a Quest bar
Liquid Intake
Espressos: 0; Coffee: 22 oz.; Tea: 0 oz.; Water: 60+ oz.
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