Post 1260, Day 232 of 2014
- 1,328 days since I started this blog -
- 1,328 days since I started this blog -
I am curious about it in this sense: I wonder about where the ripples from that particular stone-in-the-pond spread to.
We all put on our masks when we deal with other people. We think we are presenting ourselves in a certain way. I try to be true to my sense of how I am when dealing with people, but there are a lot of variables, chiefly the internals of everybody else.
I have been told some people see me as aloof.
My reaction is basically, "WTF?" I feel like I am the opposite of aloof, which I interpret as presenting myself as superior to other people.
I try (failing often, but I try) not to be judgmental. I don't believe I am, as a human, better than anyone else. I may be more fortunate, in a better situation, in a better mood, etc., but I don't make that determination.
How it is possible for me to so misrepresent my true feelings as to be perceived like that?
I am, at times, reserved (although rarely with those I know - with them, maybe the opposite) when the conversation or activity is something that makes me uncomfortable or when I am ignorant about a topic, so little or nothing to contribute.
Sometimes, I think about what I'm going to say, and allow a pause before replying in a conversation.
I find it humorous to respond to sarcasm or hyperbole as though it were neither, taking the statement literally. It's dry, but it comes from the opposite place as superiority.
Lastly, I am hearing impaired. When I'm not wearing my hearing aids, and I'm not looking at a person, I may not know that I am being spoken to. It isn't that I'm deliberately ignoring anybody. I just didn't know.
I got a new set of hearing aids this year, that are better than my previous ones, in every respect. I now wear hearing aids all the time, in part to avoid seeming aloof.
I'm doing what I can.
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Previous Weight: 210.4 lbs
Day Net Loss/Gain: + 1.4 lbs
Diet Comment
Yesterday was a perfectly on-plan day, spoiled by post-rehearsal late-night shopping hunger, grabbing an on-sale protein bar. Still, a pound-and-a-half seems like too great a penalty.Diet Comment
Food Log
Breakfast
Skipped.
Lunch
At Ling-Ling's Chinese Buffet and Grill:
Brussels sprouts, kimchee, and, from the "Mongolian Grill", my go-to dish: pork and chicken with cabbage, onions, mushrooms, green peppers and broccoli. |
Snack
Celery and home-made mayonnaise.
Dinner
Chili: Organic beef, black beans, tomatoes, chili spice, raw cacao, stevia-inulin blend. Not shown: Broccoli slaw. |
Coffee: 26 oz. Water: 120+ oz.
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Here is something i wrote down on Monday ;
ReplyDeleteHere's the situation -
You are not what They think You are.
They are not what They or You think.
You are not what you think You are.
You are not what I think You are.
I am not what They, or You, or I think.
More to follow (i Think!0.
- Love the Mystery -
Todd Rundgren says "Don't take yourself so seriously ..." and Popeye says 'I am what I am, and that's all that I am ..." Gurdjieff says "Consider outwardly, never consider inwardly"
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- Light - Love - Compassion -
Also, congratulations, i just read that Syracuse has been ranked the #1 party school in amerika. and you are in the same city!
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About the poem, nice. You could follow up with a few quotes from 'I am the Walrus'. I am Fool covers that. I'm not sure what Gurdjieff means, exactly. I'll consider it. Also, I have never been on the SU campus, although I have seen it from a distance and have some friends who work there. They don't like or agree with it being #1, but seem to like the idea that it's at the top of some list, somewhere. It's very cheap to drink in Syracuse, though. I noticed that right away.
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