Friday, June 6

Post 1756, Day 157 of 2014
- 1,253 days since I started this blog -

Daily Comment

One of the possible negatives of doing only what you want to do is that sometimes you don't want to do things that need to be done.

This is clearly a mismatch between mistaking wants and needs.

Why?

In my case, there is a shitload of garbage attached, as evidenced by my somewhat non-thinking avoidance, to something I need to do, and I can't seem to unload it. There is a thing I never want to do, and it is a thing that needs doing.

Which starts a downward spiral. The undone thing accumulates. It becomes a big thing, a glaring thing.

Now, every time I consider tackling the thing, it is a major project. Even knowing exactly how to approach it, I get anxious. I make dates with myself to tackle it. I make plans. I break it down into manageable work units. I dare not speak its name.

I find anything else, no matter how minimally pleasing, or even just less displeasing, to do instead.

Thus, my whole apartment resembles a post-apocalyptic scenario, or, more generously, an abandoned science experiment.

I am not free of attachments, by any means. My attachment to whatever bad script makes me dread housework may not end until I break free of my present circumstance, ending up in a new place with less baggage, less housework, and maybe the means to have someone else do whatever I can ignore.

That's today's fantasy, up on Cripple Creek.

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 Food and Diet Section

2014 Daily Weight

Today's Weight:         208.6 lbs

Previous Weight:        210.4 lbs

Day Net Loss/Gain:      - 1.8 lbs

Diet Comment

And, a day without dining out gives immediate results. Late night tonight meant extra Quest bar consumption.

Food Log 

Breakfast
A Quest bar.

Lunch

Salmon-almond salad (with celery and mayonnaise) on baby kale, baby spinach, chard and cole slaw mix. Not shown: A Quest bar.

Snack
A Quest bar.

Dinner
Pepperoni and organic provolone cheese, and a Quest Bar.

Snack
A Quest bar.

Liquid Intake

   Coffee:  20 oz.   Water: 92+ oz. A glass of pinot noir and a shot of Jameson's.

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