Thursday, October 10, 2019

#2362: Thursday, October 10: Crying at the movies


Post 2362
- 8 years and 283 days since I started this blog -
  
Daily Comment
I get very sentimental watching TV and movies.

When I see acts of loving kindness, displays of genuine sacrifice and familial love, it triggers something in me.

I tear up. It happens every episode of This Is Us, it happened at the end of Interstellar, for Pete's sake.

In my memory, the first time this happened was during an episode of Father Knows Best. I know that show is an idealized version of white middle-class family life, but there were  episodes I saw that seemed achingly beautiful in their humanity, and I had tears at the end of the show.

I admit, I find it a little embarrassing, but also, I am glad that I can be touched. My strong emotional response means something to me - it means there is empathy and compassion in me, and brings these positive emotions to the surface. 

Certainly, my emotions are being deliberately manipulated, maybe coldly calculated, but that manipulation does me no harm. It does not incite me to take action. or buy something, or even to change whatever I'm currently doing. It puts me in touch with good qualities.

I feel human when I can be touched by people acting like good humans. 

I'm nothing but grateful for being a sympathetic human being, whenever I am. I know it isn't all the time - I know sometimes I am less in touch with these good qualities. I accept my imperfections and try harder...

Food and Diet 
Today's Weight:                    195.5 lbs.
Previous Weight (10/9/19):         196.6 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain:                     - 1.1 lbs.
Diet Comment
Here we are at my lowest healthy weight since I've been keeping track - nearly nine years, and, although I haven't been keeping records for that long, I can guarantee it's my lowest weight in fifteen years, when I was very sick for a long time. 

Food Log
Breakfast
6:45pm: Blue-green protein smoothie with almonds, kefir, large organic egg, chia gel, kale, spinach, blueberries, whey powder (24g protein), coconut oil, hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, moringa leaf powder, fo ti (mushroom powder), cinnamon, turmeric and stevia-inulin blend.

Lunch
Skipped.

Dinner
12:15am: A (sorry for the lack of scientific measurement) huge amount of macadamia nuts. I have to not buy these again, I literally couldn't stop eating them. And a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake
   Espressos: 2;   Coffee: 20 oz.;  Water: 64+ oz.;


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