Post 1331, Day 351 of 2014
- 1,447 days since I started this blog -
- 1,447 days since I started this blog -
Daily Comment
I feel lucky. As far as I can tell, in my life every so-called bad break has been the basis for something good to happen - something that otherwise wouldn't or couldn't have happened otherwise.I am not naive enough to think that this is the way it always is, or that it is this way for everybody. But near the top of the list of things I am grateful for (everything) is that little gem, that gift from my mother (who never really believed it, but another story), given to me frequently growing up: "Everything turns out for the best."
Now, it is true that, in the heat of the moment, the place where panicked thinking has replaced any sort of reason, I forget this core principle. But at those times, whether or not I am reminded of it, as soon as I've had a chance to do even a little processing I remember.
It is very calming. Except that if I have forgotten it, or stopped trusting it, and remember it while I am in 'disaster thinking mode', instead of being calming it is maddening.
But then, I remember it.
And, for me, so far, it is true. Everything turns out for the best.
Or, since good and evil are perceptional abstracts, let's just say that everything turns out.
That's the best.
Food and Diet Section
Today's Weight: 206.2 lbs
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| 2014 Daily Weight |
Previous Weight: 209.0 lbs
Day Net Loss/Gain: - 2.8 lbs
Diet Comment
Yesterday's plan worked fine. Having eaten my two main meals at restaurants (never good for weight control), I ended the day in a depraved orgy of off-plan eating (no regrets at the moment, but tomorrow's weigh-in is not going to be pretty), I think it is possible that I put on the lost pounds, and then some. Sigh.Diet Comment
Food Log
BreakfastA Quest bar.
Lunch
At Ling-Ling's Chinese Buffet and Grill:
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| Brussels sprouts, kimchee, and, from the "Mongolian Grill", my go-to dish: pork and chicken with cabbage, onions, mushrooms, green peppers and broccoli. |
A Quest bar.
At the Ridge Tavern: A bacon basket (exactly what it sounds like) and a Greek salad with grilled chicken.
At Wegman's, post-gig, another box of oatmeal dark chocolate chip cookies, and then, after the after-gig open mic (where I got bought an unnecessary but delicious Jameson's) I went home, and ate a pack of trail mix from the holiday food basket Stacy (thank you!) surprised me with earlier today.
Coffee: 28 oz. Water: 92+ oz. A glass of Pinot Noir, and a Jameson's Irish Whiskey, neat
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P.S. Our mother never ever suggested that all turns out for the best. The main message that i knew from her was fear, frustration and alienation. i didn't buy into it, although i always struggle with it.
Yes. I remember "things will look better in the morning" which actually is usually true for me but overall- fear, frustration and alienation dominated my experience, as well.
ReplyDeleteWhat I'm hearing is: I'm the only one who heard our mother say that. She did say that to me. It never once occurred to me when she did that she believed it, but she did say it. More than once. The rest of course, is fear, frustration and alienation, with a dose of paranoia.
ReplyDeleteIt seems to me that the "privelige" that you were given, as the first born son, was / is as difficult to overcome as the lack of it that Joan and i felt. i also knew a message of Love, courage, detemination, free thinking, coriosity, and hope. We grew up under the influence of a very tumultuous and challenging family situation, which has led each of us to evolve further in our consciousness of being..
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