Post 2379
- 8 years and 308 days since I started this blog -
Daily Comment
Funny thing: After successfully writing three pages a day for sixty-four days in a row, and completing my September and October challenges, I stopped.
I didn't do them Friday. In fact, I didn't write a single thing Friday (other than the Food section of this blog post, taking the day off for a 'No Comment' on the Daily comment, which, for what it's worth, I actually wrote on Saturday). Nothing. No texts. No Facebook. Nada.
I take that back. In the twenty-to-thirty minutes I spend on Duolingo practicing Spanish every day, there is plenty of writing, but it's game-like and its purpose is learning, not expression, so I'm not going to count that.
And then, Saturday, with a day of doing nothing behind me and no pressing business in front of me, I missed it.
The writing, that is. I didn't miss the sense of pressure that keeping a streak going had instilled on me (for that, I have Duolingo). I'm pretty sure that was the main contributor to my stopping. I already have something for that, and there is a big difference: With Duolingo, I have a goal that isn't: A) contractually binding, and B) has an end-point (being the completion of all the lessons, which is likely to come before the goal of Spanish fluency is ever reached).
The three-pages a day thing, on the other hand, is goal-free. The goal is just to write three pages a day. The benefits aren't really tangible (although they're there). It is a militaristic discipline, something I'm doing because it is something to do, not because or an innate desire or because it is on the path to a goal.
But I did miss it. So on Saturday, I found myself back at it. It was just a feeling. I had become habituated.
Not signing up for the November challenge, because I assumed I would not complete it (as at least one day, Thanksgiving, it was going to be difficult to impossible to write my pages, and the next day, moreso), made me relax and let November 1st, Friday, slide.
By the afternoon of the next day, I was jonesing to write. Like happiness, it turns out I don't need a reason.
But I did miss it.
I don't know if I should be grateful for whatever comes from doing it - the insight? The need for self-expression? But I am.
Food and Diet
I didn't do them Friday. In fact, I didn't write a single thing Friday (other than the Food section of this blog post, taking the day off for a 'No Comment' on the Daily comment, which, for what it's worth, I actually wrote on Saturday). Nothing. No texts. No Facebook. Nada.
I take that back. In the twenty-to-thirty minutes I spend on Duolingo practicing Spanish every day, there is plenty of writing, but it's game-like and its purpose is learning, not expression, so I'm not going to count that.
And then, Saturday, with a day of doing nothing behind me and no pressing business in front of me, I missed it.
The writing, that is. I didn't miss the sense of pressure that keeping a streak going had instilled on me (for that, I have Duolingo). I'm pretty sure that was the main contributor to my stopping. I already have something for that, and there is a big difference: With Duolingo, I have a goal that isn't: A) contractually binding, and B) has an end-point (being the completion of all the lessons, which is likely to come before the goal of Spanish fluency is ever reached).
The three-pages a day thing, on the other hand, is goal-free. The goal is just to write three pages a day. The benefits aren't really tangible (although they're there). It is a militaristic discipline, something I'm doing because it is something to do, not because or an innate desire or because it is on the path to a goal.
But I did miss it. So on Saturday, I found myself back at it. It was just a feeling. I had become habituated.
Not signing up for the November challenge, because I assumed I would not complete it (as at least one day, Thanksgiving, it was going to be difficult to impossible to write my pages, and the next day, moreso), made me relax and let November 1st, Friday, slide.
By the afternoon of the next day, I was jonesing to write. Like happiness, it turns out I don't need a reason.
But I did miss it.
I don't know if I should be grateful for whatever comes from doing it - the insight? The need for self-expression? But I am.
Today's Weight: 196.4 lbs.
Previous Weight (11/1/19): 197.4 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain: - 1.0 lbs.
Diet Comment
Food Log
Breakfast
7:30pm: Blue-green protein smoothie Plus! with almonds, kefir, large organic egg, chia gel, kale, spinach, blueberries, whey powder (24g protein), coconut oil, hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, moringa leaf powder, fo ti (mushroom powder), cinnamon, turmeric and stevia-inulin blend plus... a banana! Also, guacamole toast with Ezekiel 4:9 Sesame sprouted grain bread.
Lunch
Skipped.
Dinner
11:45pm: Walnuts and Dubliner cheese with cole slaw.
Liquid Intake
7:30pm: Blue-green protein smoothie Plus! with almonds, kefir, large organic egg, chia gel, kale, spinach, blueberries, whey powder (24g protein), coconut oil, hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, moringa leaf powder, fo ti (mushroom powder), cinnamon, turmeric and stevia-inulin blend plus... a banana! Also, guacamole toast with Ezekiel 4:9 Sesame sprouted grain bread.
Lunch
Skipped.
Dinner
11:45pm: Walnuts and Dubliner cheese with cole slaw.
Liquid Intake
Espressos: 1; Coffee: 22 oz.; Water: 64+ oz.;
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