#1488, Wednesday, August 12: It isn't just me, and Bill Murray on 'you'-ness

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Post 1488, Day 224 of 2015
- 1,685 days since I started this blog -

Daily Comment

From the "You see?" department: A few weeks ago I was all bummed about my gig at Margaritaville, and the idea that I would be playing more of them.

What bummed me out was the in-your-face soul-less commercialism of the place, and how not-me it felt.

The feeling passed after a bad weekend, when I was confused about the source of the feeling. Once I identified it, and let go, all was fine.

Last night, at a gig with the band that will be playing Margaritaville tomorrow night, I was very relieved to hear that the leader, the one who booked the gig against my advice, said he wasn't going to learn any Jimmy Buffett songs (a requirement imposed by management is to play three. Also, to take requests) for the gig, and he didn't care if we never played there again afterwards.

Whew! What a relief!

Then, today, this from Bill Murray, when he was asked, "What is it like to be you?", and decided to give a generalized, really thoughtful response.

"Let’s all ask ourselves that question right now: What does it feel like to be you? What does it feel like to be you? Yeah. It feels good to be you, doesn’t it? It feels good, because there’s one thing that you are — you’re the only one that’s you, right?

So you’re the only one that’s you, and we get confused sometimes — or I do, I think everyone does — you try to compete. You think, damn it, someone else is trying to be me. Someone else is trying to be me. But I don’t have to armor myself against those people; I don’t have to armor myself against that idea if I can really just relax and feel content in this way and this regard.

If I can just feel... Just think now: How much do you weigh? This is a thing I like to do with myself when I get lost and I get feeling funny. How much do you weigh? Think about how much each person here weighs and try to feel that weight in your seat right now, in your bottom right now. Parts in your feet and parts in your bum. Just try to feel your own weight, in your own seat, in your own feet. Okay?

So if you can feel that weight in your body, if you can come back into the most personal identification, a very personal identification, which is: I am. This is me now. Here I am, right now. This is me now.

Then you don’t feel like you have to leave, and be over there, or look over there. You don’t feel like you have to rush off and be somewhere.

There’s just a wonderful sense of well-being that begins to circulate up and down, from your top to your bottom. Up and down from your top to your spine.

And you feel something that makes you almost want to smile, that makes you want to feel good, that makes you want to feel like you could embrace yourself.

So, what’s it like to be me? You can ask yourself, "What’s it like to be me?" You know, the only way we’ll ever know what it’s like to be you is if you work your best at being you as often as you can, and keep reminding yourself: That’s where home is."

Food and Diet Section

Today's Weight:                   207.0 lbs

Previous Weight (8/11):           209.4 lbs

Day Net Loss/Gain:                - 2.4 lbs

Diet Comment

A good, on-plan day yesterday, and the weight comes down.

Food Log

Breakfast
A Quest bar.

Lunch

Roasted turkey breast chopped salad: shaved Parmesan cheese, baby kale, baby spinach, chard, cole slaw mix and balsamic vinaigrette.

Snack
A medium cup chocolate-vanilla swirl soft-serve.

Dinner
London broil, cole slaw, celery and mayonnaise.

Snack
Sweet potato fries.

Snack
A Quest bar.

Liquid Intake
   Espressos: 2;  Coffee: 24 oz.; Water: 104+ oz. A shot of Jameson's Irish whiskey 

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