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Post 1840, Day 108 of 2017
- 2,300 days since I started this blog -
- 2,300 days since I started this blog -
I don't fear death, at least not my own. I don't court dying - in fact, I think if you embrace life in the way I do (at this point - now - my attitude and behavior having changed/evolved over time), death seems like part of it.
Not something I think a lot about or dwell on.
Somebody else's death, however doesn't touch me the same way. The grief of those near who survive, and the inevitable hardship incurred by those closest saddens me.
But worst of all is when someone's death is pronounced while they are still alive, as in someone given a terminal diagnosis.
I've lived through that once, when first wife/ex-wife Nell was given the news that her cancer wasn't responding to medication, surgery or radiation. The remaining months of her life were... words fail, either being too melodramatic or understated.
I just learned that Marsha, wife of i am Fool guitarist Mike Sweeney, has received just such a death sentence - tomorrow she will come home from the hospital to die at home - hospice care. How long? That, nobody knows. Nell lived for almost three months after she was given a week's time. It is sad - a terrible thing, to watch someone you love die. Marsha was a friend. We weren't close, but we were friends. I will miss her.
My hope is, my only thought, really, is that I can be of some service, or comfort, in some way to Marsha, and to Mike and Hailey (their daughter). I am, selfishly, grateful that death has taken so few from me over the years, with the knowledge that eventually, it takes all.
Not something I think a lot about or dwell on.
Somebody else's death, however doesn't touch me the same way. The grief of those near who survive, and the inevitable hardship incurred by those closest saddens me.
But worst of all is when someone's death is pronounced while they are still alive, as in someone given a terminal diagnosis.
I've lived through that once, when first wife/ex-wife Nell was given the news that her cancer wasn't responding to medication, surgery or radiation. The remaining months of her life were... words fail, either being too melodramatic or understated.
I just learned that Marsha, wife of i am Fool guitarist Mike Sweeney, has received just such a death sentence - tomorrow she will come home from the hospital to die at home - hospice care. How long? That, nobody knows. Nell lived for almost three months after she was given a week's time. It is sad - a terrible thing, to watch someone you love die. Marsha was a friend. We weren't close, but we were friends. I will miss her.
My hope is, my only thought, really, is that I can be of some service, or comfort, in some way to Marsha, and to Mike and Hailey (their daughter). I am, selfishly, grateful that death has taken so few from me over the years, with the knowledge that eventually, it takes all.
Food and Diet
Today's Weight: 204.7 lbs.
Previous Weight (4/17/17): 203.9 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain: + 0.8 lbs.
Diet Comment
I blame late-night eating and too little sleep for my recent weight gain. Gonna try and fix both.
Food Log
Breakfast
2:45pm: Green protein smoothie with coconut milk, kefir, large organic egg, chia gel, kale, spinach, celery, whey powder (36g protein), hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, moringa leaf powder, cinnamon, coconut oil and stevia-inulin blend.
Lunch
Skipped.
Dinner
2:45pm: Green protein smoothie with coconut milk, kefir, large organic egg, chia gel, kale, spinach, celery, whey powder (36g protein), hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, moringa leaf powder, cinnamon, coconut oil and stevia-inulin blend.
Lunch
Skipped.
Dinner
12:35am: Popcorn, Ezekiel 4:9 Flax sprouted grain bread with guacamole and cottage cheese, and a Quest bar.
Liquid Intake
Liquid Intake
Espressos: 1; Coffee: 22 oz.; Tea: 0 oz.; Water: 90+ oz.
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