Post 2569
- 9 years and 356 days since I started this blog -
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| Christmas in the Chapel of Skulls, Faro, Portugal. December 28, 2018 |
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Boredom. It has set in to a degree, because I'm hitting a block on good television shows. I started watching two, and realized, hours in, that it was just shit.
I'm having some motivational problems doing anything, though.
So it goes. It isn't as though there aren't a few good (meaning, not completely irrelevant) distractions. I have friends who check in with me via video and phone. I have a few friends in need.
I'm having some motivational problems doing anything, though.
So it goes. It isn't as though there aren't a few good (meaning, not completely irrelevant) distractions. I have friends who check in with me via video and phone. I have a few friends in need.
But this pandemic has largely freed my life from context. I'm more defined by what I'm not doing than what I am - at least, that's the way I feel. All previous-to-this-year self-defining activities have fallen by the wayside.
I'm not a traveler, performing musician, social drinker, audience member, worker. While my relationships to people hasn't changed much, the way I interact with them has, largely falling away.
I feel a bit undefined. I feel a bit redefined, but in a non-progressive way. I've become something I would describe as a mush-brained couch potato.
Which is in the lower-middle hierarchical position of self-description - no self-harm, no destruction. Boring.
I'm grateful for what I am and what I have, not for what I was or could be, or what I want.
Food and Diet 
Today's Weight: 201.7 lbs.
I'm not a traveler, performing musician, social drinker, audience member, worker. While my relationships to people hasn't changed much, the way I interact with them has, largely falling away.
I feel a bit undefined. I feel a bit redefined, but in a non-progressive way. I've become something I would describe as a mush-brained couch potato.
Which is in the lower-middle hierarchical position of self-description - no self-harm, no destruction. Boring.
I'm grateful for what I am and what I have, not for what I was or could be, or what I want.
Previous Weight (12/18/20): 199.6 lbs.
Net Loss/Gain: + 2.1 lbs.
Diet Comment
Food Log
Breakfast
12:55pm: Scrambled eggs and turkey bacon. Oatmeal deluxe (steel-cut oats, peanut butter, chia seeds, hemp seeds, wild blueberries, raspberries and blackberries, stevia) with kefir.
Lunch
5:55pm: Carrots and homemade mayonnaise. A Quest bar.
Dinner
9:20pm: 93% lean grass-fed burger with guacamole. Chopped salad (arugula, chard, kale, spinach, cabbage, parmesan cheese, walnuts, creamy balsamic dressing).
Snack
9:20pm: Cottage cheese and a Quest bar.
Liquid Intake
12:55pm: Scrambled eggs and turkey bacon. Oatmeal deluxe (steel-cut oats, peanut butter, chia seeds, hemp seeds, wild blueberries, raspberries and blackberries, stevia) with kefir.
Lunch
5:55pm: Carrots and homemade mayonnaise. A Quest bar.
Dinner
9:20pm: 93% lean grass-fed burger with guacamole. Chopped salad (arugula, chard, kale, spinach, cabbage, parmesan cheese, walnuts, creamy balsamic dressing).
Snack
9:20pm: Cottage cheese and a Quest bar.
Liquid Intake
Espressos: 2; Coffee: 24 oz.; Water: 84+ oz.;
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