#1531, Thursday, October 29: Resolving unfinished business, somehow.

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Post 1531, Day 302 of 2015
- 1,763 days since I started this blog -

Daily Comment

The more you stay in the moment (even when those times are a small percentage of the whole, which is really the case with me), the less you notice the passage of time.

And the rate at which time passes seems compressed.

Five years today, I was called for an interview at the VA. I'm thirty-six days away from the fifth anniversary of my first day on the job.

It may be a cliche, but it seems like yesterday.

Like Billy Pilgrim, I am unstuck in time. At least in my head. My past constantly reminds me of the present, and vice-versa. My timeline makes a knot, becomes non-linear.

Weeks, months, decades later, I realize something new about some past event. Including a few things I wish I'd known/said/done. Some thing will happen in my present, and I will find myself lost (again, in my thoughts) in some relevant memory, from which I glean some connection to my present.

These little intrusions of my personal (and completely subjective) past into my present-day thoughts are recognized for what they are: imaginary and fictional.

I am grateful to have repressed (at least for the moment), negatives. I can't remember the last time one of these bridges between past and current perception was anything but positive, even if unsettling. It feels more like getting closure or resolution of some unfinished business.

I think that's pretty cool - at least, it feels good.

Food and Diet Section

Today's Weight:                   207.2 lbs.

Previous Weight (10/27):          205.0 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                    + 2.2 lbs.

Diet Comment

Yesterday, I had a slightly high consumption of grains at lunch and also at a late dinner. A bit off-plan. Terrible results. So it goes.

Food Log

Breakfast
A Quest bar.

Lunch
Protein shake with almond-coconut milk, kefir, kale, extra-large organic egg, whey powder (36g protein), hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, chia gel, moringa leaf powder, cinnamon, celery and stevia-inulin blend.

Snack
A Quest bar.

Dinner
Scrambled eggs with peppers, onions and cheese, a wild-caught salmon patty, and a Quest bar.

Snack
Cheese and a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake
   Espressos: 2;  Coffee: 24 oz.;  Water: 98+ oz.

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