#2642, Wednesday, April 7, '21: Anticipation

Post 2642

From April, 2018

- 11 years and 97 days since I started this blog -
 
Daily Comment

I haven't been on a date in more than a dozen years.

That changes tomorrow.

I am a little anxious. Anxiety comes from living in the future. My anxiety is reflexive, as something out of the ordinary is coming.

I'm not worried, though. I've already worked through that part. 

My anxiety comes from questioning myself - do I feel pressure to meet expectations? I do. I wish I didn't, but my wishes aren't relevant, because I do. I'll get over that by going through it, tomorrow. 

In the meantime, I've done a wash, borrowed some things I might need that I don't have. I'm ready.

I think Vicki's going through exactly the same thing. I tell myself what I have told her: "It'll be fine."

Note: No post tomorrow, and possibly until next Monday, if I go to Buffalo on Friday. Vicki lives in Buffalo, at a deconsecrated church that is becoming an arts center. I'm looking forward to visiting, but I don't know whether it will be Friday or Saturday.

I'm grateful for all the wonderful possibilities with an unknown, unknowable future.

Food and Diet 

Today's Weight:                    199.5 lbs.

Previous Weight (4/6/21):          199.0 lbs.

Net Loss/Gain:                     + 0.5 lbs.

Diet Comment

The weight gods giveth, and the weight gods taketh away. Pretty random.

 

Food Log

Breakfast
1:05pm: Scrambled egg sandwich on Ezekiel 4:9 Flax sprouted grain bread, coleslaw, and golden milk chia pudding.

Lunch
Skipped. 

Dinner
11:10pm: Chopped salad (Chicken, shaved parmesan, arugula, cabbage, chard, kale, spinach, walnuts, homemade creamy Italian dressing), and a Quest bar.

Liquid Intake

   Espressos: 0;   Coffee: 24 oz.;  Water: 84+ oz.; 

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