Post 1459, Day 181 of 2015
- 1,642 days since I started this blog -
- 1,642 days since I started this blog -
Daily Comment
I can make good music with people who I find, in their non-music-making time, unpleasant.
As long as I'm not the object of their unpleasantness.
In that case, I choose to be elsewhere than their presence, whether it is music or anywhere else.
I actually have a lot of friends, for instance, whose politics I think are totally messed up - across the political spectrum. I believe (see previous posts) that people arrive at their political stances not for the reasons they use to rationalize and explain their views, but from unconscious depths.
America-haters, government-haters, Republican- and Democrat-haters, corporation-haters, racists and bigots, they all, as far as I'm concerned, miss the point. Many are completely consumed with the fear underlying their hatred.
And yet, if they leave me out of that drama, and they're musicians, I can compartmentalize.
I make music for the pure joy of creating 'beautiful' (or at least, good) ensemble music. It allows me to interact with other humans on a level that requires all to be present in the moment - or, at least, that's what's going on with me.
It's also why I don't do much with modern, anger-driven rock. No appeal for me as a performer or a member of the audience. But I digress.
The point is, all this past- and future-driven conflict ceases when you create good music.
That's why it's so important to me, and why the opportunity to engage this way has, for the last five years, replaced my need to live anywhere else.
PS: Happy birth date, Meriam Rose Gorfine Kellerman, born this date, 1924.
Food and Diet Section
Today's Weight: 209.2 lbs
Today's Weight: 209.2 lbs
Previous Weight (6/29): 210.6 lbs
Day Net Loss/Gain: - 1.4 lbs
Diet Comment
Weight loss from last week continues. Back to the trend line.Diet Comment
Protein shake with almond-coconut milk, kefir, kale, large organic egg, whey powder (36g protein), hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, fermented coconut water, chia gel, moringa leaf powder, cinnamon, celery and stevia-inulin blend.
Lunch
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| Salmon salad (Wild Alaska pink salmon, celery, mayonnaise) on baby kale, baby spinach, chard and cole slaw mix. Not shown: A home-made chocolate chip cookie. |
A Quest bar.
Dinner
Cheeseburger on Ezekiel 4:9 Flax sprouted grain bread with cole slaw and guacamole and a Quest bar for dessert.
A Quest bar.
Liquid Intake
Coffee: 24oz.; 3 Espressos; Water: 102+ oz.
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I forgot that Mom's middle name was Rose. Always remember her birthday.
ReplyDeleteIf the only "time" that you are able to feel "present", without conflict, is when you are experiencing " the pure joy of creating 'beautiful' (or at least, good) ensemble music", then effort, in the form of paying attention in the Now, is indicated at all other "times".
ReplyDeleteIt is said that, that which we find unacceptable in others, is really dislike for that which we are struggling with, within our self. i find this to be true for me.What do you guys think about this?
- LightLoveCompassion -
2 points of discussion: First, as a point of clarification, making music isn't the only time I feel present without conflict - but it is the only time that happens when I am in a group/tribe/multiperson/interpersonal environment.
DeleteSecond, I agree that the things I fight hardest against within my own self are things I am most sensitive to, and averse to, in others.
As an addition to my first point above: The reason this is so is because this is the only environment I am in (I think sports may provide the same sort of thing), where I have complete attention on all the people (including myself) while not having to acknowledge anyone else. At least, not until the music stops.
DeleteIt seems to me that when making music (or engaged in a sports activity) our inner focus and the focus of the outer activity are both in the moment, here and now. Distractions aren't present, or are minimized to insignificance. At other times, we must deal with outer activities and people that are not focused on the moment, but rather diffuse into various mixtures of past and future thinking. This is when the conflict comes in. This is when effort to pay attention to the now is necessary. The instant we "see" that we are being distracted now, we are "present, without conflict". The effort must be constantly renewed. That is consciously living.
Delete- LightLoveCompassio -
Yup!
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