#1469, Wednesday, July 15: This blog's mea culpa

Post 1469, Day 196 of 2015
- 1,657 days since I started this blog -

Daily Comment

Does writing this blog make me an egomaniac?

Writing the blog is certainly ego-driven: It is by, for, and about me. It represents nobody else's views, thoughts or experiences. What I write may or may not interest a reader. What I think may make no sense or seem unworthy of someone else's attention, all or some of the time. I assume it isn't all that interesting to a large number of people, or it might actually be read by a large number, which it is not.

I haven't publicized the blog, or tried to expand my readership. I am curious about who reads it, hence, the request for visitors to leave a comment. I doubt, in its history, if too much more than eight or nine people have ever read it, and it hasn't kept too many of those as repeat customers.

I think, from the blog statistics I see when I go to do the write-up, that more people (and by more, I'm talking about somewhere from one to four) read it than comment.

However, it does nothing at all to transcend the ego, and that may be a fault. In fact, it is rooted in my ego, an expression of my ego. My writing it is egotistical.

It also doesn't do much to drive any discussions - the ones that have taken place have been philosophical, about the concerns of navigating the material world vs. focusing on the higher understanding of being. They have questioned the value of the blog to the reader, or some aspect of my life that I've written about.

Which is cool, even though the blog is a lousy place for discussion - not nearly interactive enough, and the majority of the audience is anonymous and silent.

This blog started as part of a program I was on to make some changes in myself, specifically, to lose weight. There was an objective, and once that objective was reached, maybe I should have abandoned it.

Instead, I used the platform to vent my thoughts on things, mostly things about myself. Me, me, me. I haven't used it to rant about politics or religion, or many other things I have strong opinions on. I am not trying to be controversial or persuasive.

'Me' is the only thing I feel qualified to write about, and I get enjoyment from doing it. I feel like I'm sharing something, and who I'm sharing it with isn't the point. Anybody reading the blog will get a much better idea about who I am, and on a somewhat deeper level than casual conversation permits.

Its value to me is in focusing, examining and clarifying my ideas, my thoughts. It also gives me a forum to express gratitude, which I do as much as I can, and not often enough.

Its value to you? That's up to you.

Food and Diet Section

Today's Weight:                   208.0 lbs

Previous Weight (7/14):           207.8 lbs

Day Net Loss/Gain:                + 0.2 lbs

Diet Comment

To all intents and purposes, no change.

Food Log

Breakfast
A Quest bar.

Lunch
At CORE:

Spicy Ginger Steak with Quinoa Bone Broth Bowl (hearth bone broth, grilled steak, quinoa, broccoli, carrots, scallions, slivered almonds, ginger, cilantro, sriracha). Not shown: A cup of beef bone broth from Core.

Dinner
Roast beef and Dubliner cheese and cole slaw.

Snack
Quest bars and a big hunk of Dubliner cheese.

Liquid Intake
   Espressos: 2;  Coffee: 24 oz.; Water: 104+ oz.;

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