Post 1412, Day 113 of 2015
- 1,574 days since I started this blog -
- 1,574 days since I started this blog -
Which basically means my emotions can be easily manipulated.
I cry at movies. I even cry when watching TV. I'm embarrassed by this emotional manipulation, but I have a Pavlovian response to bold expressions of love, sacrifice, overcoming adversity, and so on.
That is fiction, or at least, my emotions are being stirred by things happening to someone else, fictional or non-fictional.
I do feel that writers are cynically pulling my strings, evoking a response from me just because I suspend belief so easily, and just because they can. I guess I've been conditioned. Probably by myself.
This would be a bigger problem if I weren't aware of it.
But the ease with which my emotions have been manipulated in the past has made me guarded in many of my real interpersonal relationships. That's sad, because I want to be open and trusting - and that is currently my default.
But, as Ringo says, it don't come easy.
Food and Diet Section
Today's Weight: 201.2 lbs
Today's Weight: 201.2 lbs
Previous Weight (4/22): 202.4 lbs
Day Net Loss/Gain: - 1.2 lbs
Diet Comment
I lost back what I gained yesterday, thanks, I think, to a good night's sleep and feeling better generally. Diet Comment
A Quest bar.
Lunch
Due to a forgotten lunchtime dental appointment coupled with hunger and no easily available no-time options, I went for Roasted Pork Egg Foo Yung from the local Chinese takeout and ate at my desk. Light on the sauce, no rice.
Snack
Pepperoni, celery and home-made mayonnaise.
Dinner
At Funk'n'Waffles:
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| Bacon, brie and basil waffle with apricot jam. |
Coffee: 36 oz. Water: 112+ oz.
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You haven't mentioned the standup bass since you got it. How's that going?
ReplyDeletei'm not sure what it is you are saying about your emotions.i try to let them flow, both "positive and negative" while maintaining a detached attitude towards them. i try to remember their temporary nature and recognize that i am experiencing them, but am not defined by them. Positive and negative are conditioned, subjective, reactive interpretations of changes in energies that are out of my control. That is the point, that they are constantly changing, as is everything else. i try not to get hung up. i try to constantly let go, to deal with what is now happening.
- Light - Love - Compassion -
I don't think we're too far apart on our thinking about emotions. I'm saying I find myself having emotion reactions, as opposed to emotional proactions. And, I'm saying that if other people can invoke an emotional reaction by tapping into conditioned responses, I can be manipulated, meaning, I can be made to act/react in ways that have nothing to do with any personal purpose; even against my own interests. And, I'm saying, like you, that being aware of that - my having conditioned/automatic emotional responses - and detaching from the emotional drama is the way to deal with this.
ReplyDeleteWhat's happening with the bass? or is that a subject not to be broached at this time?
DeleteThe bass sits in its case waiting for me to be inspired to make a place for it in the living room, which is a loathsome task I haven't been able to bring myself to do, yet. So, in the month that I've owned it, it has not been played once.
DeleteThat is so funny- I had egg fu young the other day. I never eat that. Now I remember why.
ReplyDeleteI actually like it. But it isn't good for you, the way an egg-based dish should be.
DeleteI know.
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