#1391, Wednesday, March 18: Let go of the small shit

Post 1391, Day 77 of 2015
- 1,538 days since I started this blog -

Daily Comment

I am not sure where the feeling of 'discontent' comes from. Certainly, it is an ego thing: the feeling that what is happening, where I am, is not what should be or where I'm supposed to be.

There are lots of cliches, many sourced from Eastern philosophy, about the 'rightness' of being where you are. Mostly, the idea is that where you are is the only place you can be - an obvious truth.

But if it is true that wherever you are is the only place you can be, then in my philosophy, the opposite must also be true. In this case, that means that you can be everywhere at once - being in one place at a time, well, that expression has the sense-temporal illusion built right into it. What if there is only one time - and it has no past, no future, just now - with timelessness comes the idea that everywhere you have ever been, will ever go, is simultaneous. There is only now. The idea that you are in the only place you can be is only true in the temporal sense. And that is, as they say, the rub.

We can't perceive now-ness - there is a sensory delay in realizing anything from when it occurred. The situation you are in is the situation you were in by the time you acknowledge it. You can't change the (perceived) past. Once it is history, there isn't anything you can do to change it.

I am a little discontent as I write this. But as I list the things that are driving my uneasiness, I realize they are whiny, self-indulgent things. I didn't get my way, and it looks like I'm not getting my way now and won't in the future. Boo-freaking-hoo. Crying over spilt milk, or worse, crying because of fear of the future. It is embarrassing.

Apparently, things are going so well, that when something seems less-than perfect, I want to vent. Things are too good! What the hell happened?

I have a little mental letting-go exercise I do.

Now's the time.

Food and Diet Section

Today's Weight:                   208.6 lbs

Previous Weight (3/17):           208.4 lbs

Day Net Loss/Gain:                + 0.2 lbs

Diet Comment

With a negligible weight gain today, I feel as if I've gotten away with something. I ate two full dinners and a late snack on top of celebrating St. Paddy's with a few shots of Irish whiskey. I wish I could say today would be better.
 

Food Log

Breakfast
Skipped.

Lunch
At Ling-Ling's Chinese Buffet and Grill:

Brussels sprouts, kimchee, and, from the "Mongolian Grill", my go-to dish: pork and chicken with cabbage, onions, mushrooms, green peppers and broccoli. Not shown: Dessert Quest bar.

Snack 

Quest bars.

Dinner
Capicola and eggs with Ezekiel 4:9 Flax sprouted grain bread and celery and home-made mayonnaise.

Snack 

Quest bars.

Liquid Intake
   Coffee:  28 oz.   Water: 100+ oz.

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