Post 1310, Day 318 of 2014
- 1,414 days since I started this blog -
- 1,414 days since I started this blog -
Being lazy when it comes to difficult things, therefore a procrastinator by nature, that is really how I get into even the most rewarding things, if there are any obstacles - especially when I manufacture the obstacles myself (almost always the case, right?).
So, the things I am thinking of doing are all high on the rewards factor. They are: Learning a full set of songs to be performed solo on guitar; learning to play upright bass; and yoga.
Yet they all have a difficult start-up, especially upright bass, which involves a significant number of steps and expenses before I play note one.
I need a rush of endorphins, a catalyzing insight, maybe a push to get moving on these projects.
The good thing is, once I get on something, I am all enthusiasm. Laziness disappears. ADHD hyper-focus takes over. Things get done.
That is how I've gotten everything, and everywhere, I've ever gotten, I think.
The things that are preventing a start on these projects? A little performance anxiety is all that's in the way of the solo set. The upright undertaking is something I have undermined myself by being very specific about how I want to approach it, then being initially disappointed, and now waiting for a resolution to my cash flow. Yoga? I'm waiting for someone to recommend I join their class, their teacher. I thought I knew a few teachers, but when I inquired, they were unavailable or not teaching any more.
So what's a guy like me to do? I think I'll start with the easiest: get that set together. Performance anxiety is just a flavor of fear, and I have no use for fear (and don't permit it in my music).
Food and Diet Section
Today's Weight: 206.4 lbs
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| 2014 Daily Weight |
Previous Weight: 208.2 lbs
Day Net Loss/Gain: - 1.8 lbs
Diet Comment
And... here we are, all stable, back at the same weight as last Friday, as if my vacation never happened, except it did. Diet Comment
Food Log
BreakfastA cocoa-hemp-kale protein shake (coconut milk, kefir, kale, large organic egg, whey powder (24g protein), hemp seeds, hemp protein (7g protein), raw organic cacao powder, fermented coconut water, chia gel, moringa leaf powder, cinnamon and stevia-inulin blend.
Lunch
Workplace flu-shot pizza.
Snack
A Quest bar.
Dinner
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| Organic beef burger with onions and peppers sauteed in spicy hot tomato oil with quinoa and lentil pilaf and cole slaw. |
Quest bars.
Liquid Intake
Coffee: 28 oz. Water: 100 oz.
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I am glad your review went well and that you are back to baseline. I wish I was better at performance anxiety. I spent the weekend doing nothing but avoiding a problem with my new wifi printer that I was afraid to tackle having failed at it twice. I now think I have a solution. plug it into my router.
ReplyDeleteIs fear of failure the same as performance anxiety? I was thinking about that when I wrote today's (Monday's) Daily Comment - No expectations. I went with where it led me (the Rolling Stones song by that name), but I think that managing expectations might be the ticket for conquering fear of failure. If you are going to attempt anything, look at all the tries you are going to make as your learning curve. No fear. Love you, and I'll look at the printer in a few days, when I see you. But I won't have to - you'll have figured it out.
ReplyDeleteYes. I think it is the same thing but with some irrational, escalated ideas about the task.
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